equally amazing.

I am tired. full stop. but I want to stay awake for something later. so, I'll just keep myself occupied by doing this. (:

And so the giant lurking around me has gone back to hibernation. It will still be tailing around some people until the 4th of December. But mean while, I'm done with my fifth form examination. -insert dancing jellybean- haha. So I took out my to-do list and went through it. Figuratively speaking, I just went through it in my mind. Much to my surprise, I still remember what I studied even though I thought I would have already deleted most of them. After going through the imaginative list, I threw it to the back of my mind because I realised that my activities for December were already planned out and that there was no way what I wanted to do will be able to squeeze into the tightly packed agenda like the arrangement of particles in a solid state. It's okay, at least there's a plane ride arranged.

Christmas is coming and we're all getting excited about it. So am I. It's classical for someone to want a white Christmas, but I want a green Christmas all of a sudden. On green pastures, in a white broad field that expands endlessly towards the horizon, with the sun dancing in the sky, the wind blowing gently into your face, facing the big blue ocean with the gentle lapping of the waves while with your loved one by your side.

"The best thing I like about Christmas, is sharing it with you."

ohh and Capri just came to mind. There's just so many places I would like to visit, mostly of islands and country side. I'm not that big of a fan to big cities and skyscrapers or floods of people making their way through branded stores in exclusive places with lots and lots of advertisement promoting their own products. I prefer serenity and tranquility. The isle of Capri, Malibu island, Bali and Dolphin isle, places like these, they make me fall in love. Which makes being a marine biologist an even more interesting profession to me, because there would certainly be traveling and I can also write by the oceans when I have a beautiful evening to spend.

this was really random, out of the blue.

boy, I miss you.

the serenity of the night.

it's the little things you do in my life to me, for me that makes me happy.

c'est nous. <3

twenty eight of november two zero zero eight.

first thing in the morning.

first thing in the morning at 6.11 am.
I was dreaming and then reality stomped down on my imagination.
I wished for my dreams to stay, but reality tasted much sweeter.

another Friday to treasure.

of random questions.

tag= random questions. (:

A. Tag
the following people do not have to do the tag and some of which do not own a blog. this is just for fun, out or randomness. =)

1. Justine
2. Julian
3. Dana
4. Hoe Wei
5. Sherina
6. Gabriel
7. Chan Hoong
8. Joel C
9. Joshua
10. Kok Khong

How do you know 1-Justine?
She's miss cousin.

What would you do if you never met 2-Julian?
I won't have a kawan baik. whether it is to disturb, to talk, to share or to take random pictures with? xD boy, I'm going to miss you when you're away! :(

What would you do if 3-Dana & 4-Hoe Wei dated you?
It will never happen, kan dana? The both of them belong to each other.

Would 5-Sherina & 6-Gabriel make a good couple?
oh no! why did i put their names as 5 and 6? they're going to kill me. I have no comment. ;)

Do you think 7-Chan hoong is attractive?
(:

Do you know anything about 8's-Joel C family?
yes.

Tell me something about 9-Joshua.
He recently was found cheating on his first wife. xD

What language does 2-Julian speak?
Hwite man's language- english; bm with a very cute style; a bit broken chinese; a language of a mixture of mandarin,hokkien and cantonese; and his very own laguage which he usually speaks when we're around leaving us clueless.

Who is 3-Dana going out with?
Hoe wei. ;)

How old is 4-Hoe Wei?
seventeen.

Who is 6-Gabriel favourite singer?
I'm not sure about singer. But I'm pretty sure he likes Planet Shakers and Relient K. =)

Would you date 7-Chan Hoong?
what about him?

10-Kok Khong single?
I shall not reveal.

What is 9's-Joshua last name?
Joshua Goh Jun Hong. xD

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1-Justine?
we're already in a relationship. the cousinship.

Which school does 2-Julian go to?
we both just left high school yesterday.

What do you like about 3-Dana?
the big sister. haha she's friendly, independent. do you want me to write an autobiography of her?

intertwined

I want to go to the islands with you.

yes, you. (:

i sat by the stairs.

sat by the stairs, in the silhouettes.
she munched on a persimmon as she flipped the pages of the book.
she realized, ' what's left, is one more day. '
and then she closed the book and walked away.

one more day in uniform, one more day of seeing you in uniform.

and because of you.

a good morning smile
and
a goodbye wave.

It's all about you.

J to the power of three.

with three wonderful people to chat with online, I feel reluctant to get off the chair and continue studying bio. maybe I should just stay for a while more. because there's just so much to talk. (:

and the best part ?

They're names all begin with the letter J.

Justine, Joshua & Joel.

grey days.

45 hours and 22 minutes.

could you tell me what happened again?

I'm not letting go.

along with the tides.

Boy, I feel like having pancakes and waffles now.

There's pin-drop silence and strangely enough there's not even an urge or slight impulse to talk to anyone at this moment. With the placidity and serenity of the night, I might just stay up and write because that's when inspiration starts pouring in; making my mind wander off to fantasies and imaginations. To me,writing is a hobby, not an activity and I only share them with those that I want to share them with. So to a certain someone, that piece of writing really means a lot to me.

Now, I wonder when was the last time I actually sat down and wrote something that I would want to take out and read when I'm 60 years young. Perhaps this blog would be of a good read when I'm at that age. While I take my time in reading through my past writings and blog post as a growing kid, with a cup of coffee in hand and a beautiful evening to spend on the patio, I might re-discover myself and have a good laugh about myself. And I'm pretty sure that at that age, it will be a good time to reminisce about the younger days.

For the past few months, I have been quite caught up with unclassified stuff that perhaps I even past my minutes in a daze, making them into worthless memories. But all's good as some things are better left the way it is , untouched and unsaid. And with the big life-threatening giant [Read: spm examination] lurking around me, I have to think of ways and smart moves to defend myself. And much to my surprise, there are just a few bruises and scares here and there.

Come to think of it, I seem like some paranoid girl, afraid of wasting time that I will be starting my tertiary studies one month right after the giant goes back to hibernation. And no, contrary to what I'm about to do, I am not paranoid about it. I just well, need to do it because of certain subjects that I want to take and certain programmes that I have to attend. Maybe it's a good move, maybe it's God's timing and maybe it's just plainly co-incidents?

Oh gosh! and oh yes!, the giant is still here and the giant is about to leave me and my fellow friends soon. Liberation? But I'm going to miss the uniform, the environment, the familiar grounds and the friends that have been there at all times while I grow into who I am today.

There's more to write but I guess it's time to hit the hay. Good night! (:

missing you.

I can barely catch up.

Was today supposed to be like how it was? Because I don't want this again. It's just too difficult to believe, too hard to accept. I must say, I'm pretty keen to find the rewind and or pause button in life if the both actually do exist.

I never thought this would happen again. Maybe I am feeling a bit tired and exhausted about everything and just want something exciting, something different for a change. Or maybe it was me who was changing too much that no one could catch up on my pace. Now, doesn't it sounds like I'm contradicting myself? Because on the other hand, I can barely catch up as well.

I know, we tend to follow our heart, our feelings and our emotions while we pack and throw away our proper, right thoughts and conscience. Yet, at times I think what I'm being thrown with is just way too much for me to handle. Perhaps it's also human nature to take people for granted? Yea, I'm pretty sure about that.

I know it's normal to be at the peak of the mountain for a split second and the next thing you know, you're seeing the world upside down, while rolling down the hill. But, it feels like I'm already seeing the world upside down , all this while.

Now, does that spells fun to you?

Don't worry, this is just out of momentarily sadness and disappointment. I have my down times too. I'll be fine when .........
Well, hello Mr. sunshine.

the twinkle in you.

and how do I express everything? :)

can I like shout it out to you and tell you everything?
I'm sure I can, right? (;

because it's running through my veins, crashing into my mind and taking over my heart.

yes, you.

yea, definitely you.

two of us; one umbrella.

seventh! ;)

mkty.

ohh,ooh la la

from A to Z, we share so much in common.

so here's to a new journey together next year, starting January 2nd!

Congrats on obtaining the scholarship to the both of us!

make sure we exchange schedules and meet up for lunch or breaks in between classes though we'll be in different colleges with different subjects and an entirely new environment.

this is to the third person who knows me best. (:

miss jyjj.

the pink paper.

the pink paper of moral values.

boy, i feel like eating pink colour ice-cream now.
and purple colour ones.

with a cone of strawberry and yam ice cream in my left hand
and a frog shaped umbrella in my right
wearing a milky coloured sundress
and a white ribbon tied in the hair

roaming the streets of a country side
admiring the lush greenery
being blown in the face by a gush of wind
until I'm exhausted

where I'll finally come and lie down under the big blue sky
by the beach
and fall asleep to the gentle lapping of the waves.

I still feel like eating ice-cream.

make me say goodbye.

Ignorance is bliss.

well, let's see how long I can ignore everything and just focus on the upcoming papers.

Be strong, myself!

even if the forces of the world seemed to be against you, be strong and always believe in yourself.

'If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools'
- if, Rudyard Kipling

trust me, nothing's wrong.

before i leave

before i leave for the battle with my fellow dearest friends,

I want to thank everyone for their wishes and advices,
for their support and guidance,
for their love and care.

All the best of the best to everyone I'll be going through this with.

& with God who arts above, nothing is impossible!

see you soon! (:

meanwhile, take care and have fun.

because it's hard to say.

I don't like goodbye's.

especially in times like these,
it just adds salt to the wound.

is my name written in your diary?

tomorrow,
is the last day of school.

I feel reluctant to let go.

no more eden talks, no more walking back to class from science labs, no more fixed classes,
no more uniforms, no more sitting next to julian, no more sitting behind of hoe wei and dana, no more fixed recess time, no more sitting under that big wide roof, no more monday morning assemblies, no more running to chem lab to see pn.wong, no more going to the office to see pn.lim,no more going to the teacher's room to look for teachers, no more entering bio lab and sitting next to him, no more entering chemistry lab and ask teacher to let us play with the chemicals, no more entering physics lab and ask teacher to let us use the computer to go online whether it is youtube or any other physics-related sites, no more discipline room, no more detention centre, no more seeing the prefects duty, no more for the need to take a teacher's pass to go to the toilet, no more attendance taking by the class monitor, no more class conversations, no more add maths project, no more free periods use to play and talk, no more playing wearwolf with the classmates , no more being called as a class, no more staying back after school just for the fun of it, no more walking in my secret places in school, no more sitting by the window pane, no more ashman talking and laughing away, no more teasing piser about atikah, no more calling kok khong fishball, no more 'psst-ing' to faiz as I walk pass his class, no more big wide field, no more prefect duties, no more hanging out with the juniors, no more study group with the close friends, no more truth or dare session, no more getting nervous and asking for answers confirmation from edwin who sits at the back of me during exam as teacher is giving out the exam papers, no more school food, no more physical education classes, no more big shady tree just outside our class, no more walking over to your sit just to disturb you or ask you to teach me add maths, no more walking slowly back to class, no more walking slowly next to you , no more this , no more that..

& no more turning to a certain angle just to see you.

I remember, fridays are special.

see you.

I know I'll see you tomorrow.

(:

see youuu.

hey you;

just that special name will do.

like you in and out of a turtle shell.