i think i saw myself.

my dream last night was extremely long, like a series of episodes. I had special powers to communicate with weird creatures,like jennifer love hewitt in ghost whisperer.xD yes,I'm not kidding. I think I've been watching too much shows.and if you're wondering,I like watching ghost whisperer.and my aunt thinks she's pretty. Anyway,yea,I had the ability to communicate with weird creatures,not the deceased. There was one part of the dream where I was sitting in my living room with a bag of glass bottles (; on my lap.Then there was this creature who is also an octopus, just that this octopus has eight purple eyes all line up in a row.That snippet is still very clear in my mind now.the octopus was staring at me while I was choosing glass bottles.We were both kind of communicating in silence,reading each others mind. freaky? xD

Then there was another part where I was at this American-little town restaurant,like talon in smallville all by myself.It was at night and I was doing some stuff behind the bar counter.In the blurry mist at night,a big size fire fighter appeared.But since it was dark and misty,I couldn't really see who it was.Just that I saw the guy wearing a fire fighter's uniform. and then,that huge big-size fire fighter turned into two young man wearing tux.The right one in black tux and the left one in brown. There was this young lady standing in the middle of both of them. By the way,that scene really does remind me of smallville, another all-time favourite of mine.

Another highlight of the dream was unbelievable. My family and my cousin's family(yes,justine..it's you!) were on a trip overseas.Then we were supposed to take another flight to some other place.But,I forgot my camera.( I bring my camera along everytime I go somewhere special or new) And we were about to board the plane in like 15 minutes. So,my mum(note that this is just a dream) paid for a car and ask me to drive back to get the camera from the hotel. Being me who always have an impression that driving a car is like playing a car racing game on the play station,I was shocked by what my mum suggested. and I didn't know how to drive one! I'm only 16+. So my mum ran through all the basics in 5 minutes. I still remember asking her which is the brake,what should I do when I want to stop or park the car. Learning how to drive in 5 minutes? wow! Impressive. But it was just a dream. Anyway,the next thing I knew,I was already on the road,driving a white colour car all by myself. hmm..why didn't justine tag along? xD I think I speeded and drifted like I was a pro car racer.

I think I watched too much telly. dreaming about smallville and ghost whisperer proves my point. except that I've haven't dreamt about one tree hill.

Well,I wish I could communicate with dolphins. (;

Speaking of dolphins,my mum once told me 'wah! everyone knows you like dolphin.' xD
Justine gave me a dolphin mug for christmas, which I am using it right now; Rach gave me a dolphin key chain with a purple bell, which it's dangling on my phone; sherina gave me a dolphin wind chime last year, which is still in my cupboard; christa gave me 2 dolphin soft toy key chain for my birthday, 1 attach to my pencil box, another attached to my school bag, ying yi gave me a key chain made from metal which is shaped into a dolphin with a blue bell, which is attached to my orange roxy bag; sherina gave me a dolphin soft toy key chain too last year, but is now so flat and black. My only hope is to get a dolphin soft toy and a paired dolphin chain which I have been wanting for a long time. Wait till I get back to that shop,then I'll get the cutest,chubbiest dolphin soft toy there. Only thing is I haven't found a paired dolphin chain, like those in the korean shows. =)

note: dolphin as in the blue mammal that is extremely cute. (;

passion.

I miss writing.
Currently working on a piece for someone.
(;
I'll post it up after I've given it to that someone.

and

I miss the gu zhen.


My symphony isn't finish yet.

song number 5.

on the fifth day of christmas my true love gave to me.....
i miss the christmas and the holidays!

on the fifth day of school my friend drove me nuts...

well,not really.Just that Julian was playing this mind thinking-concept-listening game with me and hoe wei.It really did drive me and hoe wei up the wall.We were eager to break the concept.xD
school started with bm lesson.but,unfortunately teacher was busy/absent and she did not enter class.so,we eden people were busy helping julian by cutting up Christian fellowship's invitation cards.

The last period of the day is english.Teacher gave us an essay titled 'tomorrow'.I'm still thinking about what am I going to write. We had prefects' meeting today.It lasted for about 2 hours.and yea,I saw people dozing off,people doodling,people looking here and there,people yawning,people staring at the ground....

Tomorrow is a holiday! At least I don't have to wake up early and I can sleep late tonight. But I've got tons of work to finish up.The sorting out of names,the essay,the PEKA's,the add math and the list goes on.

I'm so happy today! (;

onezerofive

I guess last Friday was the last time I updated the blog.
and yes,I still do intend to change the url of my blog.

My weekends were pretty relaxing,with waking up late,lazing around,
telly programmes and Archie's.
Monday was a bit chaotic.
Faiz suddenly walks up to me and tells me that I have to host the assembly.At first,I thought he was joking..then the "joke" didn't seem to be a joke.Took the script,ran around the school like a mad person looking for teachers asking whether they have any announcements to make. Before actually being up on the stage all by myself,I was quite nervous and afraid that I would say something wrong or my trembling voice would give away how I felt.But,it turned out pretty well.I mean,it might not be the best but at least I was satisfied and I gave my best.and when I was actually standing up there holding the microphone with both my hands,I did not feel a slight of nervous.Thank God! (: yea,I prayed before I went up.
In the afternoon around 1pm,we (faiz,ashman,me,prem and chan hoong) had to leave class to help the afternoon prefects arrange the assembly.
Maybe it was because we were wearing blazers, all eyes were on us wherever we went.
and I saw my sister! lining up for class for the first time. =)

Today was just as good as yesterday.
except that hoe wei fell sick and was absent.

hoe hoe wei wei,get well cepat-cepat!
you missed some fun today! xD

foolish-ness.

it was just a silly thing to do.
big mistake.
terrible step.
stupid choice.

whatever happened happened.
It was the best thing that happened,actually.

the most i could do now is just smile. (:

count my blessings and never ask for more.
be satisfied with what you have.

puzzled.

the first day of school isn't that bad.maybe.it's sad to know that it'll be the last first day of high school years when i am required to where my uniform.my class is on the ground floor,so we don't have to climb the staircase.eden is separated.dana and hoe wei is sitting at the right side of the class while julian and I is sitting at the left corner of the class.how far! no more daily eden talk. :( at least there's still julian to accompany so I won't feel bored.

I still can't believe that I am already a form 5 student.The fact can't seem to be registered in my brain.

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I told myself that I would not recall the bitter unwanted sour memories from the past and try my best to forget it. I'm trying.

Without realizing,I tend to escape from reality at times.afraid to face facts and reality,always wanting more of dreams and imaginations.

and I do regret some things,some things from the past.maybe it wasn't a right thing to do.

Dear Lord,
please help me face reality with confidence,bravery and strength. Never let my weakness pull me down.I pray that everything will be alright and the regrets I have will be taken away.Guide me in everything I do.I'm sorry if I've hurt anyone. Thank you for every blessings in my life and may you continue guiding me,forever and ever.Amen.

what's going to happen next?

so, new year's countdown at church was great.
we had noise, glow sticks, stuff that makes tons of noises, laughter,worship and jumping.
celebrated sister's birthday with a surprise cake.
reached home around 2 a.m.

It's now a new year. I have new year's resolution too,but I'm not going to list them down. (: So,it's the SPM year. and I wonder what's going to happen next since it's a brand new year with classes starting tomorrow? I wonder. I don't know. I'm just hoping that everything will be alright and the bitter past shall not be remembered.

A whole new year. A whole new feeling. A whole new heart.