there was once a green star.

Being the last day of February of the year 2009 with the thought of last year's February 29th in mind, I can't help but to wonder whether things would remain the same or perhaps, sweeter and nicer in its own peculiar way if that little journal hadn't been written, I hadn't gone on that flight and the day before new years eve wasn't what it was.

February 29th, 2008.
when I knew what I wanted.

make a wish, please.

it's days like these that I look forward to.

and every Friday nights.

through the glass pane.

While you were daydreaming, many thoughts ran through my mind.

What I've done wrong, but you never seemed to mind; yet always forgiving and understanding.
What you've done to cheer me up, the list is endless and you have to know that I'm glad that I have you.
What we've gone through, the laughter's and the tears, the misunderstandings and the worrying times; yet we're still close.
But these words can't convey what I have to express and I will never be able to tell you exactly how I feel.

It's a very special thing.

God's special gift to me- you.

guardian angels at night.

I sub-consciously went through the pictures I have but purposely clicked on one that showed the both of us, just the both of us.

You were smiling and I was laughing.

You remember that?

please hold on.

".. might not make it through."

what's that supposed to mean?

in purple ink.

tomorrow.
did you forget?
It's that special date,
does it ring a bell?

and did the 3 dots mean y-o-u?

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I accidentally deleted a mail. :(

blessings in disguise.

it wasn't just a beautiful sunset.



a smile is always better than a frown.

with you in our own world.

Today,
one moment;
always treasured.

and I saw that smile again.

Happy Valentine's.

bring me back to the past.

few months ago,
to each other we said,
absence makes the heart grow fonder.

But now?

fading away.

That feeling, that particular feeling where your soul as if being pulled out of your body, you're feeling so tired, every ounce of energy used up, feeling so tired that you just want to fall into deep sleep or go on an escape; that feeling when you're so exhausted and when you're so upset at the same time that you just feel like falling back, leave a goodbye note and walk out of this scene.

goodnight messages.

dear brother,
smile okay?

I know someone wants to see you smile. (:

love,
your sister.

knit our hearts together;

ohana means family.

remember those ice-cream dates?

"... talk to you later"

but later never came.

It must have lost it's way.

on nights like these.

The loneliness amidst the noise,
the strength found within the silence.

tu me manques.

we've always been a part of it.

Flag post- one of our many duty places.

I miss school.
I miss prefects.

on summer nights.

I want to wake up to your gentle whisper of my name, the name only you call me by. With the waves splashing ashore, the seaweeds tickling at our feets, the beautifully formed shells peacefully lying beside us while welcoming the dawn.

Just the both of us.

but I really want to tell you that ...

I thought I didn't care. I thought I will just let it go by. I thought I won't dwell on it. I thought I was over it. I thought I won't take it and keep it in the heart. I thought I thought I thought .....

So much thoughts or rather so much of I thought.

I was wrong.

it's not the same anymore.

Miss J, this is done because I'm bored and you're in the middle of a class and - (:

Questions are as follows:

1. How much do you spend on clothes per month?
Nil.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend/girlfriend?
My boyfriend will be my friend as well, so makes no difference.

3. How often do you think about committing suicide?
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4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
What do you think?

5. How many babies do you want?
xD

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Sometimes.

7. What is your goal for this year?
To treasure the sweet & discard the bitter.

8. What kept you of being who you are?
God & everything around me. The list is endless.

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to you? (List 10)
Ever so passionate for the Lord, Serves and loves Him unconditionally even in times of difficulties, Knows what and when to do the right thing, Takes time off to spend time with loved ones, Willing to stay up and accompany at all times, Adventurous, Amazing, Loves the people around him, his family and me, Someone who loves the ocean, Someone who can compose poems together with me.

10. What are you really afraid of?
Thine shalt not speaketh of thine fear.

11. What are your bad habits?
(:

12. Is there anything you want to tell the people who hate you?
Uhm,do you have anything to tell me? Let's clear up the mess!

13. State a random fact about yourself.
I like pillows.

14. What does flying mean to you?
Being in close distance with cotton-candy clouds with no traffic jam and no pollution. And it feels free.

15. What do you crave for most currently?
Being in Maldives with a few loved ones.

16. Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?
A hug, on a beautiful night.

17. Describe the person who tagged you. Honestly.
Honestly? She's my twin and the second person who knows me best apart from my family.

18. What have you done to yourself that makes yourself happy?
Wrote something for someone.

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
I have no idea.

20. If you can choose how you want to end your life, how would it be?
Ask Him who arts above.