upon a rainbow.

as we go on,
we remember all the times we had together.


do you remember that we once wore white shoes together?

maybe, someday.

Today has been tiring and despite a few dents here and there, it was a very good day in one way or another.

I've got stories and pictures to share! ;)
Am excited for what's coming along next.

Life's good when you have love, joy and peace everywhere around you. (:

I got to see my dear 'sibling' today!!!! :D
But didn't manage to talk much. :(
I miss those days, but I can have them back, right? (:

4 happy smileys and 1 sad one. The happy ones out beat the sad ones. Happy, it is! Hehe
xx

last train home.

Just to keep it short (well, I'll try) ,
yesterday was unbelievably awesome & amazing. Simply because of the people and the way we spent our time together. (:

Now, instead of Thursday Thursday Thursday;

Sunday Sunday Sunday! :D

'It was a LONG but GREAT day. *smile*'
- J.

simple & short.

How does it feel like to be on the last train home?

make some cucumber juice.

I think the title has got to do with the fact that I have eaten 3 sticks of cucumbers. Are they called sticks anyway? Yup, not cucumber sticks like carrot sticks. But, 3 long Japanese cucumbers, with wasabi. Yummy! :)

Just for the record and for memories sake, I have eaten 2 Apples, 3 Bananas, 3 Japanese cucumbers and half a Papaya from yesterday till now.

I feel good. Plus a great sense of accomplishment! Hehe.

Would you make me some watermelon juice instead?
Yes, you.

you need to do the tango.

I'm done! I'm done! I'm done!
I'm done!
yesh, the kimono people has been completed.

Another thing off my to-do list. :D
*dancing jellybean*

p.s. I wanna sit in your car after you get your license. (:

glue stains.

I am really really fed up & afraid of them kimono bookmarks now. The stickiness of the glue, the not round faces, the shortage of ready to stick hair, running out on paper necks, the glue stains and aagh! But thank God for someone's songs that help me go through the entire process. Well, not the entire yet. I still have 12 to do!

I want to see Mr. Darcy instead.
I should just finish up the remaining twelve bookmarks, get over it & bring myself to meet Darcy.

ohh, and listen to more of the songs. (:

dwells in me.

Flicking out his black velvet coat tails, he steps towards me and,
ignoring my outstretched hand, bows his head politely.
Then he looks up and fixes me with the most intense,
velvety brown eyes I've ever seen.

'I, am Mr Darcy.'

♥

switch it off.

I nearly vomitted when I saw something. I should have seen it coming. Ick! =/

I've just came upon the climax of the story of the book that I'm reading but the thing is, it ended way too fast that I keep re-reading the exciting part. I should move on. Hehe. ;)

I had fish balls for dinner and still craving for more at this moment. I should have bought more. Yum! :p

I want to go on Thursday, please oh please. I should ask again tomorrow. Please? Please? Please? :D

I feel sleepy. I should retire to bed. Goodnight, world! :)

xx

- - -

Hello.
(:

for some time.

to three very different person,

I'm still keeping your message,
because it never fails to make me happy! (:
--

where are you?
I miss you, dear sibling!
*violin plays in the background* ;)
--

and the last one,

because you only know how to upset me.
But it's okay, I've learned from mistakes and
it's so much nicer to laugh the sorrows off with person #1.
I'm a happy kid, don't worry!

yet the three of you mean a lot to me.

brown paper box.

Out of the blue, people have been asking me questions like

'How are you doing?'
'How's life now?'

Contrary to the title of this post, life has been pretty good. Better in a way, actually. I've come to realize that there's just so many other things outside your comfort zone that can make you happy, even a smile from a new found friend can do wonders. So, (: !

Of course, catching up with old friends and best friends can totally light up your days as well. :P
I have been doing that, and that makes me happy! Seeing that we're all slowly turning a year older, with more capabilities and responsibilities, there are also more things that we can do together now. And I thank God for that blessing.

Here's to an everlasting & happy friendship! ♥

falling off the steps.

Every girl is looking for her Mr Darcy.
Imagine if you found the real one ...

That was just taken off the cover of the book I'm reading. (:
And has nothing to do with what I feel like typing out today. I feel different today, I don't know why. Maybe because it's a Friday. :D Also maybe there's a relation to my long to-do list and I have only been able to cancel out one thing.

Oh well, it's the holidays.

"Do not worry about tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own."
(Matt. 6:34)

night time blessings.

June 11th 'o9.
also what you missed, Ju. XD

like an untold fairytale.

'Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized.'

'I see the sparkle from the million flashlights
A wonderwall of stars
But the one that's shining out so bright
Is the one right where you are.'

'I'm outside in this cold still looking for you
If everything'd stop I'd listen for your heart
To lead me right to you, yeah
I tried every way I can.'

'And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you
Just to be with you.'

'We were apart but your heart never let go
So thank you for showin' me with one look
What used to be, and still is, a possibility.'

'I'm ready to run forever.
I'm holdin' it together,
'Cause I'm comin' to you.
I don't know how far I've got,
But I don't care.'

'Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you;

Memories supposed to fade
what's wrong with my heart?'

'Some days are cold
But together, one day we'll both
Change the weather.

I don't wanna say goodnight.'

'Here we are lying here,
It's our last final goodnight,
Just because it feels so good,
We're used to pretending we're alright.'

'You know the things have gotta change
You can't go back, you find a way.'

'So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead.'

'This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself, it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow, tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
If anyone can make me fall in love, You can.'

Dear you,
your enthusiasm's just like a bulletproof vest.
'only you can take me sailin' in your deepest eyes.' (:

an untold secret, like an untold fairytale. xx

hidden but found;

Stored under the draft section in my phone, I came across what I've typed and saved on March 6th '09. It was something that I've been told but have forgotten and now, am reminded. (:

Evangelism is like one beggar telling another where to find food.

a pair of shadows;

When I got back home on Thursday night after spending the entire day with the best friends,
I was a very very happy kid! (:

But that night got me thinking as well.

'Because I can't cry over it, I'll laugh over it.'
Talking about it indirectly with some of my favorite people is, unexpectedly, the most effective cure for me. Really. I hadn't knew that I would be so relaxed and laughed upon it until it happened. And when I thought back about it like I often do before I doze off, I found it -surprisingly- very distant from me; because it was once very dear & close to me. I guess it's the better for me as well.
Laugh it off, shrug it off & let it be.

'I can't help but to think about that night. Someone's right, I'm always over thinking things.'

♥

before it all goes up in smoke.

today has been a pretty long day despite being home all day long.

& I am lost for words when I saw that sentence.
Is there a meaning to it? or was it just out of spontaneity?

Time to read a book before I hit the ol' sack. (:
Tomorrow will be a better day, trust me.

Goodnight, you! xx

listen to the rhythm of nature;

so it wasn't as I had always imagined;
all of us squeezed into the back of an old but warm truck,
bopping to the music playing of a familiar song,
laughing our minds out while the wind gently brushed across our faces,
making ourselves silly while we stole random shots of one another.

but we made it for a road trip, and it was good. (:

All 20 of us got ourselves into 4 cars -instead of an old truck- and left for the jungle after breakfast. It was to be a waterfall, but it was more like a flowing stream when we arrived. The journey there was a little nerve-wrecking, a little worrying and of course we were constantly proclaiming sentences like 'I can't see them.' , 'Where is he?' , 'Why is he going so fast?' , 'Faster give them a call.' , 'Ask them where are they.' and 'Do you see them now?'. And we concluded that either we bought every car a flag, use walkie-talkie the next time or make sure the leading car was in a color even a blind man can see. But no doubt, we had the fun side of road trips journey. When we came across a particular spot along the high way near Genting, our memory couldn't help but brought back memories of one particular year when something 'significant' happened by the roadside.

When we finally got ourselves to Lentang -it sounds so much like kentang, which is making me hungry now-, the place was already filled with so many people. Mostly families, unlike us. But we're a family too, right? :) Settled down and we let the fun begin! No point going into details now but it was really nice to get back to nature after the exams I had just sat the night before. Yes, the night before. We had fun, went down and went up the stream, sat against the current, fell down, pulled a muscle, got stared at -maybe because we were behaving like we've never been to a stream before and therefore we were acting like monkeys-, splashed water at each other, pictures taken and so much more. But to me, the most memorable thing we all did was sit around a few big rocks and just enjoy each other's company and of course, the cold flowing water, the shady trees and the rays of sunlight that broke in between the gaps of the shady trees.

Too bad my date wasn't there. Right, joel? :(

dolphin whispers.

beautiful day today. (:

written in black.

When someone leaves, it's not the leaving of the person that hurts the most, but knowing that that the person won't be there anymore. The once filled spot will from then onwards be empty and will always remain empty. Even if the certain someone is still around.

One of the most disappointing disappointment you may feel in yourself after an exam paper you have tried your very best and have put a lot of effort in it is not knowing that you could have done better in your exam, but the shaking of the head of one when that someone ask you how did your exam go and all you could say was 'okay'.

Sometimes, I may have my own desires. And my desires are not because of other people's desire.
I would very much appreciate if I weren't thrown with these 'out of the blue' random accusations.

Just had to get that off my mind.
--
On a happier (way happier) note, I have a month off! (:
And I just might have the perfect plans, who knows?

embrace it;

The butterflies in my stomach is definitely still around.

although it has been a while.
♥

every day's drug.

guess where? (:

when I said goodnight;

"let's play a game."
"what game?"
"the one we always play. you know, the one where you connect words with the last alphabet of the previous word. except this time, we use people's name, okay?"
"we always play this when we can't sleep."
"okay, then let's count the sheeps."
"count until we fall asleep?"
(doesn't bother, starts counting) "one sheep, two sheeps, three sheeps, four, five..."

"why don't just arahan kepada semua sheeps: masuk baris!"
"and then, satu barisan sepuluh sheep."

haha
"why don't you add- dari kiri nombo?"

and then we erupted into fits of laughter.
no wonder I couldn't wake up this morning.

blinking street lights.

Disappointing. Disappointed. Disappointment.
How far will this go?

Dwell not on the past, even though it was just an hour and a half ago, it is still the past.
Learn from your mistakes & do better the next time.

No use crying over spill milk, right myself?

Focus on the next thing that you need to do,
and take care of yourself. (:
--

" don't be too hard on yourself.
life is never perfect,
you have to fail sometimes."