I don't want to listen anymore.

why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why?
why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why?

WHY?

That spot is going to be empty from now on.
All I can do now, is just to imagine that you're there, to pretend that you'll always be there on that particular time; sitting or standing on that very spot, smiling and/or laughing, bringing happiness & joy into my life, just like you always do.

crushed. xx

of beautiful creations & wonders.

They love you,
but do you love them as much as they do?

They are about to leave,
but I pray that that day will never come.

running, hiding.

Like a pill, crushed.
What they say might be true- trust, sympathy, tease, attention and naive.

Goodbye & goodnight!
I need my special friend, my secret library buddy.

ride around.

I had a great afternoon today. A very enjoyable & memorable one.
And thank you for the ride! (:

here we go, ride around, round and round.

remember?

definitely.

unrevealed dashes.

You know, I'm still fighting my way through.

Can't I, we just go back to last time?
To be like last time.

I always forget to forget about it.

to a shallow end.

I have been very lazy to sign into blogger and msn lately, but facebook has an exception; which I don't know why. I want, I want tomorrow to be a holiday! But I won't be getting it. :(

During Bio lab lessons on Tuesday, which we did the testing of tensile strength of vegetables fibre ; I was thinking that we should have vegetables rights. Because, as soon as we were done with our amusing & "entertaining" experiment, certain classmates of mine resorted to carving the Petola. Poor petola! And the tables were full with fibres and vegetable waste. But, we did have a great time, didn't we? :D Bio practicals are the best!

I remember I had a whole lot of stuff to blog about, but they seemed to have slipped through me.
Reading tomorrow, I think I'm gonna enjoy it! (:

Math test today was =/. I remember our first math exam in Form Five; brings back sweet memories. ♥ memories don't go away. This sentence suits the poem that we did this morning - six young mens by ted hughes. At least I remembered something from Lit! :P

On a more interesting note, I had a good lunch today! Yummy yummy, with good company. Plus, today is a very important day in the life of my dear friend, miss orange umbrella, who took the public bus for the first time to lunch with us and who walked back to campus together.

Can't think of much stuff already. ;)

under your protection;

they can't be seen, they can't be touched;
they can only be felt.

to a further distance.

Excuse me for the unpleasant sentences you're about to read.
I'm just frustrated, disheartened & upset.
--

What more do you expect of me? I gave you my best, my very best! I gave you more than I could ever give; because I thought you deserved it. A second chance, a third chance and all the other following chances. But is this what I get in return?

I give up! Please go away.
I'm trying so hard to mend and to recover, but it's all a one-sided effort.

I'm so tired of pretending.
I'll say a prayer for you and leave.

that fairytale kind of feeling.

Happy eighteenth birthday!

I'm sure this birthday have been a very blessed and memorable one.
Check your diary to recall this special day whenever you feel like it and always remember that there are people in your life who cares and loves you.

Also, never forget your birthday wish. ;)
You know who you ♥ .

xx
your just-turned-18 year old self.

overflowing.

Thank you

to everyone for the wishes, the blessings & the love.
to blogger for the cute virtual slice of cake.
to the youth for the surprise, the fun, the ♥, the happy moments and the yummy cake.
to the college mates for the card & the cute, pretty cupcakes.
to the cousin for her wonderful & touching birthday message.
to the best friends for their birthday wishes.
to a certain someone for the poem & wish.
to the family for the surprise & the 18 muffins!
to the dearest secret pal for saving me from drowning.
to another someone for the most special & extraordinary birthday song.
to the sister in christ for the dolphin key chain & the teddy box. :D
to the brother for the teddy, the card, the heroic moment & for being ever so nice. (;

And to God for all the amazing people and the wonderful things that He has placed in my life. Also, for being able to celebrate my eighteenth birthday more than I could ever wish for. It has been a very blessed birthday!

Who knew I'd be surprised with a birthday cake and a birthday song by the pool one day after I heard someone being surprised by the pool as well? <3 you all.

Thank youu all too. :)
xx

cherished;

sweetest, you are. ♥

hear 'em.

I hear people singing the birthday song.
Happy Birthday to you who is downstairs, by the pool and who is being surprised with a birthday cake.
--
Suddenly, I miss my best friend terribly.

falling stars.

Tired. But not willing to get off this chair. I'm supposed to have started packing for tomorrow or at least make a simple list on what I would like to bring. But I haven't got to that also. Maybe it's because of the three people that I haven't talked to for a long time. (:

It's been a long time since I stayed home on a Friday night. But then again, I've lost my usual late Friday nights conversation. But considering that I'm up this late tonight, still talking to a certain few; I feel contented. I just realised that I've used 4 'buts' within such small number of sentences. I must love to reason a lot. Maybe the results for the personality test that my Math lecturer gave me is really accurate.

All I hear is the sound of spinning fan and me carefully typing away on the keyboard, afraid to make any noise. It's pin-drop silence. And I'm thinking of being at the beach now, to listen to the waves and to walk along the shore till sun rise.

two words;

Heart's racing.

slipped.

"I'll wait."

yes,this has a double meaning.

internally.

random thoughts with half a minute to a minute interval;

I should change the color of the fonts again. Where's my sister? Oh no, where did I leave my math notes again? It's so quiet now. Maybe I should go and find ants.Watching the blinking light on the modem. 6.52 pm & counting. That picture staring into my face is so tempting. I haven't been here in a long time. That fan is dusty. Low battery. www.yellowpages.com.my. yellowpages is an error. I hear people screaming in the pool. The stack of paper in the printer is not thick enough. My dirty shoes. Approaching footsteps, they're gone. I can't believe what happened this afternoon. Aww..I wish I was a part of what I watched. I should not sit here any longer. 9 pieces of clothing. I see a hole and 2 cloth pegs. It's been an hour and 15 minutes. Customer Deliveries? I want a hat. Awkward conversation I just had. Brown is a nice colour. The doorbell just rang.

overdosed.

good things come to those who wait. ;)