remember those days?

August 9th 2008- Photo 023

I was staring at it.
When I look at it, I can't deny the happiness. We both looked happy. (:
I can still recall that day and what ever that happened.

That day when I stole a second and asked for a random shot..
& the picture turned out perfect!

Still remember what you said after you saw the photo?

Hehe Ohh, and I just realise your nose is a little big. :P

pause for emphasis.

Mocks and term break.
This two words shouldn't go together. They are mismatched.

The latter is like a locked heart, not meant to be open. For heart is where the love is and love is associated with happiness. And the apparent happiness can be felt when students like us have a holiday, or in other words- term break. Whereas the former is like a -- I don't know, like a heavy weight that shouldn't be there when it's supposed to be a holiday.

Oh well. let's just hope everything goes well although it doesn't seem so.

Be optimistic! Think positive. (:

NCIS later. Perfect way to distress and end the night before I retire to bed. Ohh, and mango too!

don't remind me.

So is this the scene where the both of us actually start walking in separate directions? Is this where we see the gap between us growing apart? Or have you already left by yourself? Was it all on purpose?

It was tiring catching up. You were always walking in front when I was at the back or when I was in front, you didn't bother walking faster. It was only me who usually took the initiative. To catch up, to make sure things were on par. Is this what we thought it was? Was this what we plan to share?

Then when we were on the same pace and when we decided that we're going on the same direction together, you decided to stop. Just stop. Dead End. More like, I was left at the dead end. Stuck. But you made a turn and started walking again, alone. Didn't even bother looking back to see if I was okay. Or did you?

Is this what you want?

More importantly,
Are you happy?

happy is the word.

Happy in my dreams. (:

and happy in reality as well. :)
because these dreams make me happy.

The night before last, anonymous superman was in my dream. But it wasn't a good start to this domino chain of dreams. But, in the dream, some other hero came to the rescue.

Yesterday afternoon, guess who was in my dream?
:) :) :) :) :)

each smiley represents one alphabet of the name of that person.

Then last night's dream was so funny!
But it won't happen. XD

Oh yes, happy is the word!

somewhere around there.

I rest my case.

I had a dream. A dream that surprised me.
I'll tell you when both you and I have the time. (:

I'm sorry dear friend, I just had to delete the email I received.
Because I can't bare to keep it but rest assured, I read it.

I am addicted to something. XD

awaits by the dock.

Nearly twelve. Exactly another 28 minutes to twelve.
I guess, miracle won't happen again?

I guess. I don't know. I still hope.

in your own handwriting.

April 18th 2008.
to
April 18th 2009.

one year. 365 days.

To sum it all up, priceless.
Amazing.
Memorable.

A little unreal.

old newspaper;

I would really appreciate a reply.
Thank you.

--
Where did everybody go?

It's so quiet so quiet so quiet.

dear pocket.

I carry a cross in my pocket
A simple reminder to me
Of the fact that I am a Christian
No matter where I may be.

This little cross has no magic
Nor is it a good luck charm
It isn't meant to protect me
From every physical harm.

It's not for identification
For all the world to see
It's simply an understanding
Between my Savior and me.

When I put my hand in my pocket
To bring out a coin or a key
The cross is there to remind me
Of the price He paid for me.

It reminds me too, to be thankful
For my blessings day by day
And to strive to serve Him better
In all that I do and say.

It's also a daily reminder
Of the peace and comfort I share
With all who know my Master
And give themselves to His care.

So, I carry a cross in my pocket
Reminding no one but me
That Jesus Christ is Lord of my life
If only I'll let Him be.
--
Found this in the living room as soon as I came home from college. Really encouraging and inspiring, just wanted to share this with you all. (:

It's amazing how I read this on the right time, when things have been changing, with new feelings and experience starts pouring in and when other events seem to be happening one after another. And sometimes the sense of hopelessness when you feel like you really want to help someone, something and yet you feel so hopeless, you don't know where to start and you don't know how you can help. But you really don't want to see those people going through what they are going through. Also, this serves as a reminder that the cross will not only always be in my pocket, but will always be in my heart.

Good night.

one sit away.

" Are you bored? "
But I forgot what I heard.
Sigh. Who interrupted me?

Because the next thing I knew, another shadow was overshadowing mine.

to not give away.

I wonder, I wonder ...
I wonder too much.

But nobody knows what I'm wondering about.
And that's a good thing. :P

for every yellow crane.

I'll write you a series of letters.

If you don't see me, find them, read them and you'll understand.
Hopefully, they'll be able to guide you to me.

perhaps they were written already.

and the reason is you.

Change,
is the only thing that changes.
Yet,
it is what you need.
--

My mind is totally blank right now, I can't concentrate, can't exactly focus on one thing. And do you know why? Because because because because -- I'm not sure either. Or maybe I just don't want to tell you.

I.prefer.the.latter. (:

But today, I just feel like blogging, just feel like typing something out; whether it makes sense or not. Anyway, college have been pretty fine. BUT I STILL MISS SCHOOL VERY VERY MUCH! And all those people, all those friends, all those teachers and all those secret hideouts. I know I sound ridiculous and unbelievable, but I really really miss my prefect's uniform. I don't like waking up, having to think what should I wear today. At least not everyday of the week. That's why my mum said I should have a career which provides uniform. =)

Moving on, this week have been great!!!!!!!!!! Did something I never thought I would do. But I'm glad glad glad that I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you dear cousin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where are you? Tell me!!!!! Tell me!!!!! Tell me what happened!!!! Excuse me on the over exaggerated usage of exclamation marks, I'm--- I'm too excited!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just saw him... on the TV. And someone I didn't expect told me he's cute.

said person: ..... the cute cute one.

hehe :)

And then there's Easter this Sunday, which makes today Good Friday. The youth is having our youth Easter celebration tonight, hope everything goes well and everyone will have fun. ALSO we pray for miracles and something magnificent to happen. Oh yes, because I couldn't find any bunny ears for the skit, I made one. It looks very funny. xD

On the most exciting note,
tomorrow is a few hours away! (:

I can't wait.

i dream of thee.

I didn't think this would happen.
But I'm glad it did!

Really.really.really.really.really.glad.

And the same goes for me, I'm about to burst with happiness and excitement!!

Upon a shooting star.

Last night will always be remembered. (:

Always & forever.
--
A new love found?

And I saw you smile.

unexpressed.

to three unidentified:

for anonymous superman,
I always wonder whether you still keep everything.

for anonymous guardian angel,
No more apologies, okay? And I appreciate everything. (:
But you seem worried these days. You don't seem like yourself. You're constantly in the daze, sometimes drifting away. Why?

for anonymous unknown in the past,
Now I understand. You don't have to be afraid to let us know. What are brothers and sisters for anyway? But I was never meant to be where I am now.

--
Goodnight.

when the rain stopped.

The weekend have been unexpectedly great. But I still wish a weekend had three days, just as I was telling my mum. Oh well, I had fun and manage to fill that emptiness. (: No words can express how great it was...

Because I had so much laughing-till-I-cry moments on Friday night, with all the 'lame' jokes, lameness and inside jokes.
Because I learned something about someone. xD
Because someone will always be there watching out & watching over.
Because I saw my juniors, though I would love to meet all of them soon.
Because I talked to somebody- a friend, a brother and an entertainer.
Because I got to spend time with my sister at home, which I actually do everyday, but still I enjoy it.
Because I also got to spend some quality time with two sisters and had some 'talking time'.
Because I realised that we should go slow on certain things, look at things from very different point of views and to also believe in ourselves.
Because I saw my dear cousin sister today and had our usual family time at mcDonald's.
Because I got something that I really really really like.
Because I love my family. (:

Because Wednesday is the day after tomorrow and Saturday is 5 days and a few hours away.

And because this week, I made a decision to do something I've never done before and will definitely enjoy what I'm going to do.

Thank God for such a good weekend. I definitely needed weekends like these. Especially since ...

clouds of confusion.

I am really very ultra super confused.

My first impression was that you SEEMED nice and friendly. As it went on, you proved me wrong; changing my opinions from time to time. You were nice at times, and at times a bit over the boundaries, which in turn gave me goosebumps. Yes, it did. And at times you were okay, which was okay in every other aspect as well. Then at times, you scare me. Out of the blue, you started your little friendly gestures which was the least bit friendly because it was annoying and painful actually. Then now, I don't know anymore. I believe I also don't need to know.

That's it.

cheerios;

just thought this place needs some sunlight & fresh air.
:)

in bold and enlarged.

I thought about it.
I learned my lesson.

It's time a change needs to happen and this time,

I better make it through.