behind every illusion.

You know that feeling of being neither here nor there, doing this nor that; just lying down being idle?

After classes today, I went to meet up with my twin & part of our very big, extended family for lunch. Of course, lunch was enjoyed. With good company, a cosy atmosphere, close-to-heart people and endless conversation topics, how not to enjoy a pleasant afternoon like this? Despite the weather.

In no words or diction can I explain and or elaborate the similarities we both share. Even the things that we think of, the feelings that we go through, the thoughts of certain issues & the uncomfort of certain things that we both agree on.

And so we came up with a theory out of no where while waiting for her brother,
If there are a parade full of people who said that she looks like her brother and then there are a stadium full of people who said that we both look extremely alike and then there are a school full of people who said that my sister look like me; which in reality, actually did happen. Then, don't the four of us look extremely, acutely, excessively, exceedingly, exceptionally, extraordinary, notably, to nothing degree alike ? Seriously, my mind boggled at all the words that flashed before me before even typing it out.

We were talking about college and classes, comparing this and that, sharing this and that and then laughing about this and that. I think the waiters at the cafe was probably curious to why we laughed and joked so much. On the way back, we both unexpectedly revealed something that the both of us are experiencing it now. It's that feeling of neither here nor there. You know, I'm amazed at how things work on earth between humans.

It's like we are all filled to our heads when it comes to assignments, work, issues and normal teenager dilemma. And then there is the sleep deprived moments. Then when we actually have the time to take a rest or a good night's sleep and we actually want to really sleep well and make the best out of that short period of time, our mind starts to wander of to the issues and work we have. Being worried about not doing some things right or just worried about tomorrow or the day after and then not being able to fall asleep or feeling very reluctant to wake up, get out of that ever-tempting bed and get about with certain things which in turns results in being neither here nor there- just laying down there, still, calm, silence and idle.

But, don't worry be happy, right?

Now, take a deep breathe and think happy thoughts.