sent messages.

I am really liking you now. Really.
If only you knew. But you would never know.
Oh well, you should know one day.
I am fickle minded at times. (:

So choose. Should you know?
I think ---

xx
I want to talk to the sixteen going on seventeen year old sibling.

tell me why.

you're so flawless, you're so perfect.

like everything I ever wished for.

pretty evening skies.

would love some waffles, pancakes and fried eggs now. (:

I wonder when will the whole new feeling start to kick in. Because it still feels like the old is lurking around somewhere, but it's nice to have the old around. ;) even if I'm alone at it.
Peace, tranquility, serenity.. what more could I ask for?

In the middle of exams and bio paper is in 5 days time. Barely stuffed any facts into my head although have been going through my notes for the past few days.
At least today was pretty well spent compared to the other days with reading a book, doing some math and reading more bio notes.

It's evening already, how time flies when you're having and not having fun. In the midst of exam period, don't we all agree that we tend to find more meaningless things to do besides studying compared to what we find during non-exam period?

Aagh! I don't want to be one of those. I need to study. study. study.

Okay, off to read more books & then to bury my head in my notes again.

xx
are you done with your exams yet? :D

I hope I can make it for Friday night.

sent by the wind.

Happy Birthday.
♥

with love.

- -

are all these hints

to tell me that
after all, it wasn't worth it at all?

Sometimes, I choose not to believe.

like no other.

It's nice to stay up till the wee hours of the morning, just to chat with a 'long time no see' good friend. You never know what the midnight can do to your conversation. From depressing news to school stuff to sending songs over to talking about the singer to food to what effect the food can do to you to complaining that it's so hot to --- and finally to goodnight.
Can't wait for your exams to be over.
xx

sweet surprise, for you.

It's the 18th already? That was fast. One year and a month flew past just like that.

You never know what you're in for till you get it.

xx

too beautiful a moment.

was listening to David, live, from manila! through a phone call!
Thank you dearest cousin for the call! Hope you'll enjoy yourself! (:
and she chose to call me when he sang my favourite song! So nice of her. I miss her. :(

It was so sweet & the awesome vocals & my gosh! everything around me came to a halt. teehee
:D :D :D

♥♥

did you say something?

♥

sweet morning scent.

May the 13th;

Happy 18th birthday Laveen!

I'm glad you liked the little gift. Have a blessed 18th! (:
Everything that I've got to say to you is in the card.

May the 14th;

Someone just turned twenty three! ;)
Happy 23rd birthday Gabriel!

Bachelor doesn't sound old lar, it just sounds more classy. Like, eligible bachelor of the year kind of class. XD Since you're 23, I hope your little wishes will come true at the end of the year when -- you know what, I think. =)

And last but not least,

Happy 17th Kevin! :)

May you always be happy & cheerful! :) Enjoy your last year as a high school student & I'm sure you'll do well in overcoming the BIG giant monster- SPM! hehe All the best!

And remember, as cliche as it may sound, when life hands you lemon, make lemonade!

it's been a while..

since we had cousin outings. And like J has said, cousin outings are the best! It always feels good to be around family, what more family who are around your age, who share similar interest, who knows and understands every step you're going through and about to take in life? hehe (: Now, don't you feel the happiness someone is having? ;)

So the weekend was amazingly amazing. And yes, I had a date. Hey, I thought some pair of brothers wanted to tag along to see how special the guy is? XD guess they couldn't make it. Anyhow, it was good and we all enjoyed ourselves. Cousin sister drove to the mall with three people in the backseat and her dad riding shotgun. I have to admit, her driving skills have improved a lot, except maybe for the parking part. haha The three of us at the back couldn't help but to giggle and chuckle once in a while throughout the entire journey. We had American cuisine, watched a movie although it's the cousin sister's second time and the cousin brother's third time, walked around, bought gifts, bought ourselves some stuff and spent time in each others company. Unfortunately/Fortunately (which do you prefer?) ; Surprisingly (haha I prefer surprisingly) , I got to know some very shocking news.
Very.very.very.shocking news that I'm still trying to digest.

On a happier note, both cousin sister and I got ourselves similar tribal band. This happy note remained as I was trying to digest the shocking news I was thrown with in the afternoon until night came knocking on my door. Guess that wasn't the end of my day.

What literally blew me away was more surprising news that night.
My jaw dropped. I was speechless. I am still trying to digest that little piece of information. When I say little, I don't really mean it. It's trivial at times yet a little obvious at the same time.

Moving on, Sunday! Reached church pretty early and started the day with a present. =)
No, not for me but for someone else. I hope you like it! The youth took two single parent family out for lunch but I had to bail out because I had yet another date, with the cousin sister again. I really thank God for today because after 853986720954 times of planning to go out by ourselves, we finally did today! So we sat at Coffee Bean after lunch for a good 1 hour plus to just catch up and tell each other what we've been meaning to share about college, life and uhm, stuff. Walked around BSC for a while but it was the wrong place to be so we ended up in Cold Storage. We looked around for groceries, made a detour just to get something we wanted which was a stone throw's away just to kill time, imagined ourselves being where we were at a certain phase of life and literally walk the entire shop a few times. We ended up with two bags of chips, one box of cereal and something else that should not be mentioned. It is afterall, too random a thing. haha

Then, we went over to another mall where we got ourselves another tribal band! (: They're so pretty and sporty all together. Here, we ended up in this little cafe ala coffeeshop style playing Happy Family and Snake & Ladder while munching on chips. Such enjoyable moments! Definitely worth every second. =)

Thank you to those who made my weekend an awesome and memorable one. Cousin outings, the best; EDEN projects, a must!
Youth times--who would want to miss it? ;)

hardest to forget.

Dear you,

Tomorrow signifies the starting of a brand new phase in life for you. Although I feel reluctant to let go of last year's, I know I have to, one way or another. And unfortunately for me, I'll have to learn it the hard way. You know this better than anyone. (:
Also starting from tomorrow, you'll be making new friends, and you'll get to know more people. Your contact list will also be filled with your new friend's contact and your inbox with their messages. But I hope you'll never forget mine. I know that it's very selfish of me to think that you'll have new classmates and that I'll never be one of your classmates anymore. It saddens, I admit. Nevertheless, I also hope that you'll think of me once in a while when you rewind back to the group of classmates you once had, the classroom nearest to the rubbish room we once resided and the fun times we once shared. I will remember, this I promise you.
Do you remember the truths or dare? Do you remember the charades? Do you remember the girl who used to sit by the window and who will always walk the 12 steps to your table?

The nostalgic parts aside, I sincerely hope that you'll spend the two years with lots of fun and happiness, with great classmates and amazing friends! Also, don't be too playful yea? ;) hehe
Enjoy the times you're going to spend there and I hope you'll do well and be the best. Shine as bright as the stars, just like you always do. Take care and if you need a friend at anytime, anywhere; I'll always be here.

Love, your ex-classmate.

put on our bulletproof vest...

because I don't want us to get hurt, because we have to stay strong no matter what happens. And whatever that we are thrown with at this time, we have to keep our faith going and be there for each other yea!
because we are all a family.

yesterday, my maternal extended family lost someone very dear to us all. but no matter what it is, I'm assured that my uncle is with God right now in a place without grief and pain but filled with pure joy and happiness.
--
you can skip the following part of the blog post, it's just a reply to my cousin because it'll be a very long reply for a comment. (:

The sad part:: yes, also pray that those who are there with her will be able to encourage her and that she'll find the strength to pick herself up again to continue on.

The peculiar part:: looks like someone's clothing is getting valuable. and priceless. I wonder why would anyone want to steal those?

The good part:: Congrats!!!!!! We shall celebrate today yea! Although when the time comes for you to see this post, we would have already celebrated it. Also we would have probably done so much priceless cousin stuff together with our dear shy cousin that our legs are all sore but nevertheless is so happy and satisfied that we decided to reserve this day just for ourselves. Except for you lar who have been starting your days in the evening. Teeheee. But you better start adjusting your biological clock again, because next weekend, you can't afford to wake up at such ungodly hour. You know why right? ;)
But you always do well, and I'm proud of thee. *hug*

The fun part:: And we're going to watch one of those two again today ...... right?
I'm sure both you and I will have more to write about today under this category because it's going to be fun & memorable!

The yellow part:: Finally! Someone starts eating more papaya. XD I remember last time when I used to offer you papayas, you'll always opt for watermelons. Come join the papaya family. hehe.

The driving part:: This I can't wait. Really.really.can't.wait. It's 11.04 now, so there's another 1 hour and 25 minutes to go. No, my math isn't bad, if you get what I mean. Hmm..shall I record another video?

The aberrant part:: Oy! hehe. You better start adjusting it back before next weekend comes knocking on your door. Aaaaah! The excitement!

The worst part:: You know,this shouldn't be labeled as the worst part. because He never forgets you nor forsake you. It should be labeled as the grateful part. grateful because you are conscious that you have been distracted. grateful because He will always be there for you, to lead you and to guide you no matter what happens. grateful because He will never forsake you nor forget you although we as humans tend to prioritize other worldly things compared to Him. therefore, be grateful yea dearest cousin? Nothing is worst in your life. we shall be grateful together!

Now for me to go and get ready to see you! And my 'lame' jokes yet shy entertaining cousin brother. What happened to the older cousin brother who thinks he is DA's look alike? teeheee..

post script, just for you.

psst.... I've something for you. I've something that I want to tell you.
But I'm afraid to tell you. So I wrote it down somewhere, in one of my little notebooks.
Look for it, only if you want to. If you don't, you'll come to know about it soon anyhow, when something happens. But if it doesn't happen... oh well, I don't know.

haha goodnight.
psst.. Joel, going for the 'date' tomorrow. XD

hit the wrong note.

I keep searching for something interesting to read and something worth writing about.
But little did I know, laid before me is already a story by itself. A story which I shouldn't take for granted, because through this story, I'll be able to learn. There are also many precious memories, whether good or bad waiting for me to pick up as I read through the story. This story will also teach me to be happy, to be sad; because by being sad once in a while then only we will appreciate the taste of happiness.

The title of this story is - My story.

"why risk your bright future in your past?" (:

write your name here.

miss them. miss school. miss --

now to move on to our next EDEN project. ;)

you lost grip.

I don't know whether is it just me or not, but honestly, I still feel the sting. I still question, what did I do wrong? I want to know, I need to know. But there's just no answer, or more like you just don't want to answer. Maybe my assumptions were right after all but you have every right to come and ask me, correct me and prove me wrong. Unfortunately for me (fortunately for you?), all these are merely my dreams. Or maybe as I've thought (& still think so) and as I've heard, it was all in the name of sacrifice. I really hope it is.

127 days, you've clearly move along.

Please tell me I'm wrong.

xx
buried in you but still alive in me.

three wishes for you.

no,wait. me.

I asked, 'are we done with mocks?'. Before anyone could answer, I answered myself. :D
So, done with mocks. Next in line, the real deal. Didn't do well for mocks, I better do well for the real exams. But before that, I got some 'unimportant' stuff to do. ;)
And a letter to write. Weeeee~

the wonders, the colours.

let's see if I remember (from left to right),

Dark blue for Darcy; Purple for Lydia and Wickham; Bright pink for Elizabeth Bennet; Baby pink for Jane Bennet; Orange for Charlotte and Collins; Yellow for Lady Catherine de Bourgh and Anne de Bourgh; Green for Mr and Mrs Bennet; and last but not least, Baby blue for Bingley.

Yea, Pride and Prejudice. :p

p.s. there are reasons to why the colours are assigned to the specific characters.

unattached strings.

Feeling incomplete, because I didn't complete my test paper. ):

I'm sorry, I couldn't finish filling up the blanks.

quiet like that.

You don't know how much you can discover while sitting in the car, spending two hours on the highway zooming past lush greenery, staring into the beautiful evening sky and listening to a certain someone's voice through the earphones.

I enjoyed every moment of it.