lots of love,sister.

It's new year's eve today.It's also christa's birthday.
In case you are wondering who is she,
she is my one and only beloved precious little sister. And yes,I love her. (:

She is one great little sister who is often overflowing with laughter,joy,fun and whacky expressions. And as my cousin sister has said, nobody shall mess with her.
I repeat,NOBODY.Except me,maybe. xD

she brings joy to the family, lighting up our days.

you will always be loved,little sister.
happy 12th birthday!

delayed.

just a short synopsis of what I did in sabah and how I spent my christmas.

22nd December
reached sabah around noon. we visited a mall nearby which was pretty unwelcoming. had burger king for lunch with couzzies. a young girl stared at us as if we were from mars or jupiter. bought a set of top and skirt from nicole. my cousin sister bought the exact similar one too. *applause to her* went for dinner at this seafood restaurant with lots of live aquatic creatures. my cousin sister who was supposed to sleep with her brother slept over at me and my sis room. stayed up till 2am doing some wacky things.

23rd December
breakfast was nice.went to a Sunday morning market which was located approximately 4km from the hotel.stayed back to walk around again with my mum and aunt while the rest headed back for the hotel except my cousin brother who was already indulging himself in the internet service. got a really nice bracelet. (: went to another mall in the evening. this one was more high class than the one yesterday. the christmas decorations were pretty. stayed up till 2 am again with my cousin sister,talking about happenings in our life as my sister doze off into dreamworld.

24th December
the islands. went to jesselton point to take a boat to sapi island. the island was very crowded,the water was clear and the fishes were just there,right at your feet. my cousins,sis and I signed up for the banana boat ride. but unfortunately the wait was too long and our ride to manukan island was about to arrive. so,we cancelled it and got back the money. the ride to manukan was the best,as if we were flying. xD manukan was less crowded,the fishes were prettier. my cousins,sis and I had a better time there due to the absence of huge crowds. We practically had the beach to ourselves.

25th December
3.10 am in the morning,my phone rang. the 5th christmas message. apparently,when the message alert rang for the first 4 message,I was in deep sleep..so,got myself up,reached for the phone and read all 5 messages. had breakfast pretty early,sent out around 30 christmas greetings over breakfast. the 8 of us set off for kinabalu national park and poring hot spring. nothing much there. well,we saw two time capsules which were to be opened only in the year of 2020 and 2050. had another heavy dinner at night. later,me,my sis and cousin sister enjoyed ourselves with the camera and our christmas hats. great christmas,indeed!

26th December
last day in sabah. had breakfast at 9. went to the neighboring mall with cousin sis,sis and uncle. then,all 8 of us squeezed into a hotel room to watch ice age 2 and tom & jerry. yupp,and i agree with justine,the parents enjoyed it more than we did.
our flight was scheduled at 5.10pm. But,it only managed to take off at 5.45pm. the flight went through slight turbulence due to bad weather back here in kl.

all in all,the trip was superb. I had a blast! (: in the end,my cousin sister slept over at my room every night,leaving her bro alone. sorry,cousin brother!

wake us up when september starts.

yes,wake us up when September starts.
September kiddies we are. ;)

I'm off to sabah with her and our family in about 16 hours.

all the dresses and laces.

my mum was clearing all the old clothes from the suitcases which have been lying in the store room. really really old clothes.clothes that I used to wear when I was a toddler,clothes from china and all the pretty dresses i used to wear. She wondered why my sis did not wear all my dresses and our conclusion is my sis was leaning more towards the 'pants side'. xD

moving on..

we had Christmas caroling yesterday night. we only visited one house as our main caroling dates are 21st and 22nd of December which is tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. too bad I'll be leaving for sabah on Saturday morning with my family and my cousin's family.still,I'm excited for sabah and caroling on friday night. so, we had practice first before moving on to the house. The practice started off quite sad,due to the lack of carolers. We prayed for a miracle and we did get it. Later on,the real caroling was great,satisfying and hilarious. The highlight of last night was the webcam session with gabriel. haha xD i practically laugh non-stop for over an hour. gab,if you are reading this,i had a stomach ache after chatting with you and the whole gang. We,the youth insisted that he show us his girlfriends photo. =) But,sadly he didn't. he told us that we might need to wait for another ten years. wahaha..by that time,I'll be 26. anyway,I had a great time last night. x)

had mcD breakfast this morning with mum and sis. yummy! I still remember the friday mcD dinner with chen hooi, ying yi, wee zcent, joel c, joel g, rach and joshua.

I read someone's blog this afternoon. I didn't know how I got myself there,but yea,I read it. That person,whom I'll shall name red is someone .... brave.I think. I mean, red practically wrote the names of who he/her dislike/hated and criticize them with all those vulgar and crude words. I have a feeling he/she don't really knows me as he/she wrote something about me thinking I don't deserve what I have. never judge a book by its cover.enough said about red. red isn't a colour i fancy though.

you make my dreams..

wonderful.beautiful.

special people leaves special memories in our lives through special ways.

when the stars go blue.

I was in my room yesterday evening and I decided to look through my photo albums. Photos of me from 2 weeks old-8 months old-1st birthday-australia-2nd birthday-china-sabah-3rd birthday-back here. my mum sure spent a lot of her time on these albums.

justine and me. we were sharing a bowl of chips in some hotel in terengganu.kar wye and I. childhood friends.before I left for china.

:)

on our 4th uncle's boat.
Justine and Elisa.

x )

I'm not gonna kill joel g anymore.

you're my everything.

i haven't been blogging much. =)

thursday
went for inside out conference in the morning.ended around 4 something. it was pretty good.Ps. mal was great.his sermons are always exciting and he is always on fire to preach God's word. came back home with aunty nancy.on the way home,she told me that she might want to guide us individually starting from next year,once a month.among us are joel c, joel g, rach, jian and me. came back home.came online.don't remember what i did.and the rest is history. =)

friday
inside out conference day two.reached there earlier than the rest of the puchong youth.5 minutes later,they came.talked,laughed.then,it started. during lunch,since we had extra time in hand,we went jalan-jalan. xD saw the crystal baby thing. Joel bought it but he didn't want to take care of it. haha then,our day continued. We went for the 'let's talk about mission' workshop which was hosted by Ps.Richard. That was good! (: Ended around 5 something. I left earlier because needed to go to 1U to get three more Christmas presents with my mum and needed to drop my sis off at her friends place. The youth went there too.but,10 mins later. my mum bought big apple doughnuts. then,headed for wild channel. saw the youth as we were heading towards wild channel. they were gonna play bowling. so,i met them there later. my mum left. me,yi and rach went around looking for presents. went to gladsounds. then we met up with the guys for dinner at mcdonald's. haha xD dinner was nice with these people. me and joel compared the length of our frenchfries. xDD later,headed back to seapark church for the concert. the journey back to church was hilarious.

saturday
spent my afternoon wrapping christmas presents. went for youth christmas party at night. me and sherina did the mime. all in all,it was great. (: enough said.

sunday
church in the morning.practice caroling after church. our conductor is funny. joel c, eric and jian kept dancing. funny people!
NOOOO! joel g knows my secret! aaaaah! kill him! kill him! =)

now, i can't wait for caroling and sabah.and new year's eve.

maybe precise,maybe accurate.

as i was reading my cousin sister's blog, i decided to do some of the quizzes she did. and so,here are the results.

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

I'm more girlish than you-justine?

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)

Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal. Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

=) okayy.

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

would a girl have a guy brain? XD

You Are 74% Grown Up, 26% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature. Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

(:

marshy..

mallows.

I'm having marshmallows for supper.
cute little pretty pastel-colored ones.

pretty! (:

love letters with love.

Whenever i see a sentence or a shout out saying 'i love ..... forever',I'll start wondering. what,you may ask? It's just a short sentence that explains how someone feels. well,I would wonder whether that particular girl or boy would love their special someone forever. what if you meet someone better,someone more amazing,someone more perfect for you later in life? yes,I believe in love,but at this moment in time,I wouldn't say I love ........ forever. even if I have one. Why get tied down to someone when we're at this age? No,i don't disagree on high school romance/coupling or what-so-ever you call it. In a way,it's good. maybe. It may be just puppy love or it may be your true love.If it is really your true love and you've found it,congratz! If it isn't,just sit back and let God work in your lives.

It's very normal for people my age to like someone,have a crush on someone or even fall in love? I admit,I do like someone.Well,I guess most of you might know who.But,please just keep it to yourself. even if you spread it around,it wouldn't bring you any benefits. But,I'm not sure whether he is the one God has planned for me. maybe yes,maybe not. I wouldn't know. Of course I would hope that he is the one,but God might have someone more perfect for me.

Let's just wait and surrender everything to Him. (:

another question I have that has always been there right in the middle of my head,very eager to come out.

Many people/articles encourages us to tell someone we love them if we really do love them before it's too late. In other words,tell those you love that you love them because you never know what tomorrow holds. What if I love him and I was just too afraid to tell him? What if the shy-afraid side of me takes control and the brave-eager to express my feelings side shrinks? I wouldn't be able to gather up my courage to tell him how I feel. What if I told him that I love him? and it would ruined our friendship? What if I didn't tell him until he decides to be with someone else's? What if both of us love each other but am just too afraid to tell each other how we feel?

I wonder too much. I think more than I should.

I know.

=)

i miss my uniform.
and my class.
and those happy,funny,entertaining sometimes evil friends.
=(

4 jujur '07.
form 4 prefects.'07
my partner in crime.
we kill silently. xD
second last day of school '07.

the little drum men.

little drum men.
well,there are many in OU/1U(whatever you call it).
i particularly like the one by the window. (:
they are cute.
[definition of cute: ugly but adorable]
but they're not ugly, just tiny and adorable.

on the 11th of December as in yesterday, me, my sis and my mum spent about 10 hours in 1 utama. we ate brunch at sushigroove. i like the sushi and the round lights there are cool. it's very simple but there are like chopsticks decorated around it. then,we shopped around. we went looking for Christmas presents. I've got most of my presents done except for three. to cut it short,we bought 2 pairs of school shoes,2 new pinafore for my sis,1 pair of flats,1 pair of shoe,1 pair of white pants,1 brown t-shirt for me and mainly just Christmas presents. yupp,that's about it. I'm just too lazy to elaborate. short and sweet will just do it. :)

i saw this bear chain with purple and white little diamonds.It's so nice and pretty! there was a dolphin chain next to it, with just white little diamonds. I still prefer the bear one. (:

13 days to Christmas. maybe we could start singing 'the 12 days of Christmas' tomorrow.

of actions,rythms and songs.

Verse 1
Who am I that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name would care to feel my hurt
who am I that the bright and morning star
would choose to light the way for my ever wondering heart

Pre chorus
Not because of who I am
but because of what you've done
not because of what I've done
but because of who you are

Chorus
I am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapor in the wind
still you hear me when I'm calling
Lord you catch me when I'm falling
and you've told me who I am,I am yours

Verse 2
Who am I that the eyes that see my sin
would look on me with love and watch me rise again
who am i that the voice that calmed the seas
would call out through the rain and calm the storm in me

Ending
I am yours
Whom shall I fear whom shall I fear
Cause I am yours I am yours

who am I by casting crowns.

it's a very nice song. we're doing it for our youth Christmas party mime. (:

tomorrow.

I'm tired.
I'll write tomorrow.
i promise.

good night and sweet dreams. (:

always.

they're always there.

all those that have gone through primary years with me.

elaine. eunice. matthew. li chung. joanne. keenan. roxanne. yuan yang. benjamin.

and many many more.

elisa** i miss you guys A LOT!

the days in puay chai will never be forgotten.

will you count to ten with me?

together we walk.

past.

present.

future?

the 10 letters that brought us closer.

for me & you.

this phrase hit me right on the head.
& my heart.

"life is either an adventure or nothing."

I'm making mine an adventure.
and a fairytale.

with a sprinkle of everything.

I'm making a half u turn.
care to join?

don't worry,it's not a big deal. just that everything i see these days reminds me of many many other things in the past. I don't know why but at least it isn't bothering me.

elisa** that's just me!

whites.

i decided to change the colour of my blog. white looks nice. =)
* we like white *

if i were to travel,time would be my transport.
time really flies. next week's youth christmas party, 2 more weeks to sabah with family,3 more weeks to turning F5. being a senior and more juniors! i must really treat my laziness if i want to beat that guy in my grades. speaking of prefects..i better start getting ready all my prefects stuff before school reopens.

so,youth camp was great though it wasn't really grand. we enjoyed each other and had a great wonderful time together. i already posted the pictures up. not all of them,but just the important ones. too lazy to upload all. sorry~ *camp was just nice*

back to today.
where did i stop? oh yea,prefects. haha XD nothing much to say. to those who are curious, it's for me to know and for you to find out. surprises are always nice,isn't it?
today is also daddy's birthday. we went for birthday breakfast.very unusual. came back home and wrapped all my storybooks/novel/non-fictional books. not very good at it though. justine,i need some tutorial here!! still managed to wrap a few, luckily it's not very messy. ohh..and i found out how much of a perfectionists i am, just by wrapping books. very great!

and i got a bear hug award,from my beloved cousin. it's at the side panel,right at the bottom. why don't they have a dolphin award? =)

i need to get christmas presents. 1 very extraordinary special one. (:

elisa* bear hug you.

harloo.

okayy, it's very unusual for me to use 'harloo'.
i prefer hey, hi , helo , hello or just say that someone's name.

anyway, i love my firefox theme. it's black and a bit glowy. <3 and there's the foxytune thingy at the bottom.to those that already have that..i'm a bit slow at all these stuff..
my right ankle hurts.it makes walking hard.but now it feels much better.

currently reading what if..everyone knew your name. the second time! i thought i didn't finish it cuz it's another choose your destiny novel and there's a lot a lot of stories in it for you to choose. so, i decided to read it again. then,the whole storyline sounded so familiar to me.

moving on..

sherina got a job. the pay is quite good also. and the place is near to where she is living. so,it's really great. She's so happy, God answered her prayer.

the neighbors are singing worship songs.. it reminds me of the second night of youth camp,where we sang at midnight before rounds and rounds of mafia till early morning. that time was really unforgettable. wee zcent played the guitar, joel and ying yi on piano and keyboard..the rest just sang along. we must do this more often. =)

back to the book. so,i decided to read it again though it'll be like deja vu. anyway, in the book..there was this foreign exchange student from spain. his name is sebastian and he is from seville. ohh..i remember when i was around 12. the place i wanted to go for a holiday was spain. i don't know why,but the name kind of attracted me. but now i'm not really into spain. i've changed to hawaii. it gives me a picture of beaches,white sand,clear water and a light breeze. after all, he loves beaches too. XD

disturb me.

disturb me.please.i don't know what to do.I'm lost.I'm bored.come talk to me.i promise i won't bite.sometimes i feel so caught up.dunno who to talk to.i often talk to myself.someone once told me that we should try and talk to ourself in the mirror,it would challenge us.but i always talk to myself.so there's no more challenge to it.

ahh...this is just so random.

idunnowhattofillinhere.

i want to post something up here. someone tell me what to do.

the first click on 'new post'.. i typed something like that.
I'm on an attempt to blog differently. wish me luck and i hope i succeed. the last post was a bit emotional and sad.
then i wrote some happy-ish stuff.

the second click was on 'edit post',to edit the previous one.
it goes something like this..
so many happy stuff are happening to people around me.when is mine gonna come around?

i was reading a book.some choose your own destiny book.those where you get to choose your own story. as i was reading,something hit me.

the girls sweet sixteenth.

i wasn't really satisfied with it. so,again,i hit the delete button and i find myself doing this.

so,what should i fill in these empty spaces?
i feel the need to blog.i have so many things to say.but many are inappropriate to talk about. i mean umm.. because it's like really personal..so,yea.

haihh..i know I'm complicated and mysterious. i open up to people at times,but not much.

okayy,if i could explain myself in 5 words or sentences,it would be

-mysterious
-complicated
-very highly sensitive
-i think way too much
- (fill this in for me)


and i have this obsession over sentimental things and places.

just plain.

i haven't been sharing much with people.
i think I'm trying to keep everything to myself.
i guess that's the best way.

a lot have happened.
and i don't know where do i stand.
I'm confused and lost.
I'm also happy and sad.

where are you when i need you?

p.s* i miss you.

them & me.

my wound , your plaster. <3