Friday, August 29, 2008

thine blue ribbon.

i don't know why,
all of a sudden;
i really miss you.

of flowers, beaches & breeze.

for the very first time, i wore a Malaysian attire for the celebration of Malaysia's Independence day. actually, it was a two in one event today. it was to celebrate merdeka and also our school's very own Hari Augerah Cemerlang Ko-Kurikulum. received a certificate for secretary of Interact Club 07/08. and i got to wear my prefect's blazer again!

wore this baju kedah which was like batik & everyone thought i was a Hawaiian. (:

ohh and lots of picture taking, laughter and stupid crazy moments.

us 5J & 5M along with the school's choir team had to lead the school in singing two patriotic songs, which also explains our very unusual day with us in such attire. :]

lots and loads of picture and video, but as usual, the pig in me is out! XD
maybe some other day. MAYBE.
we ended the day with truth or dare in class. haha such priceless moments!
&& you never know what to expect from this bunch of friends i have. ;)

prefect's barbecue, tonight!
but SOME PEOPLE won't be there. ):

Thursday, August 28, 2008

i could dance in the rain.

it's like a roller coaster without tracks that sets my pace,
a story with uncountable characters,
a drawing without an eraser,
a picture without caption
and a drama that never closes it's curtains.
but, I'm glad i found happiness & love.
& you play apart in it.

(:

this is my life.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

lost myself again.


"oh no, messed up another day."
" i just hope nothing was affected.''
"thank you for advising.''
"i learn my lesson, better just shut up the next time and let everything happen as they wish."

***
"though the distance, everything within is still connected."

we've that sorta thing,
that sub-telephatic mind kind of thing.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

let's slow dance.

(:

this is for you.

empty today.

The sun's out,
the rainbow is so pretty today!

i feel oh-so random today.
maybe it's because of that, that & that.

today, i was asked what was running through my mind by a friend of mine
because we were bored & staring into space
when we were supposed to be studying
and turning ourselves into nerds.

anyway, my answer was rather stupid.

me: i have that thing, there.. that thing, that uhmm that thing and that thing.
oh yes, and that also.

i didn't know what i was talking about actually
and there was only ONE thing running through my mind at that moment in time.

(:

Monday, August 25, 2008

last night's.

it sure feels good to be back in the presence of people whom you love, trust and knows almost everything about you.

it sure feels good to see you again
.

i like what you said yesterday.

of us.

i wish i was at a beach now.

so i can have it all come true.

our imaginary story together.

taken aback.

dearest me,

feel the detachment!

it sure feels hard.

but you know you'll make it through.

Friday, August 22, 2008

square boxes.

i asked a few of my friends to give me a word each. and for every word I'm gonna elaborate. pardon the randomness & the boredom.I know i should be burying my face in books by now.sorry,can't help! got to escape from the books. (:

ashman gave me cat. not a word i would expect from him. a cat? honestly, i thought he would give me counter strike. XD he knows why.back to the cat, i don't really particularly dislike them nor like them. when i think cats, i think ball of yarn. milky colour ball of yarn. i don't know why, but yea, i do. i know my youth leader loves them but not me. so anything cat related, i can just pass it to her, right? i prefer dolphins. (;

then gabriel gave me mate. when the word first appeared in my msn chat box, soul mate came to mind. there was a picture of a boy & a girl, holding hands; but they were stick figures in my imagination. actually, he meant 'mate', the one where Australians address they're friends. also something he caught while studying in down under for the past one year or so. the word mate, i can't think of anything else. except for soul mate and maid, the lady that does household chores.

sherina gave me the word elisa, which i can't seem to elaborate. (:
oh, i remember the oral test eden did together about HIV. ELISA is actually a blood test or some test related to HIV and Aids. and how nice, I would black out when i see blood.
and this is from wikipedia, since i can't bring myself to elaborate about myself.

Enzyme-Linked ImmunoSorbent Assay, also called ELISA, Enzyme ImmunoAssay or EIA, is a biochemical technique used mainly in immunology to detect the presence of an antibody or an antigen in a sample. The ELISA has been used as a diagnostic tool in medicine and plant pathology, as well as a quality control check in various industries. In simple terms, in ELISA an unknown amount of antigen is affixed to a surface, and then a specific antibody is washed over the surface so that it can bind to the antigen.

There are also types of ELISA. we have the "Indirect" ELISA, sandwich ELISA and the competitive ELISA. i wonder what's those all about.

never thought i was that complicated.

and someone have yet to reply my message, where are you, mister? (:

just like square boxes, this post is kinda boring.
even square boxes are more useful.

might just let it be.

how can things be like that?
how? how? why? why?

I think I'm gonna scream out loud!

save me, my hero.

hey you.

I'm turning myself into a nerd.

with my specs & BIG heavy books.

just kidding.

with you by the horizon.

I'm amaze with everything you do to me, for me.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

the beginning of an ending.

if you need to know, this is where i am at now.

I'm at the beginning of which i feel is an ending to a certain segment of my life.
and at the same time;
I'm at the beginning of a whole new beginning of another segment.

the entire thing about the beginning of which i think is an ending used to be my favourite, my love and somewhere that i can confide in. Because these bunch of people used to always make me happy, used to always be by my side, used to care about me, used to be my everything. and now, i feel that we're growing apart except for one of them. maybe, just maybe it's me and not them. but you know what? I'm really tired and exhausted pretending that I don't care about you guys not caring about me or about being oblivious to the fact that I've been replaced. I try my best in everything I do with you all, but sometimes it takes more than trying to pretend to be actually spending time with you all. what i am referring to doesn't go out to all of you, there are still one or two who i actually still feel connected with.

just when i thought the walls were broken down, barricades were fixed.

as for me, I really don't know anymore. I don't know what I want, don't know what I still want, don't know what I can do, don't know whether I belong there, don't know who should I confide in, don't know don't know and just don't know. The whole situation is hidden somewhere in the fog, but a part of me still remembers everything vividly. maybe you all would say that i should just let go and i actually think that it's time to move on. but as said, i really don't know anymore. I know as someone who plays a leader role, I should not be like that. who cares? I've been replaced and forgotten, kept in a box and thrown into the basement.

I know, one of you told me that I've not been forgotten and everyone misses me. but, you know what? I really don't feel it. Why is it when i do something, you all take my words for granted? why is it you all must always test my patience? why do you think I'm not serious until i scream or break down in front of all of you? why do i feel forgotten when i haven't been in your presence for only 3 weeks? friends shouldn't feel this way, and this shouldn't be happening. why is it when two person is in charge, only one person takes it seriously most of the time? why is it that you guys ALWAYS take me for granted? why? why? why? It hurts to know that I feel this way, torn apart from all of you.

why do you have to create all this chaos?
everytime i think of it, i feel like breaking down. but, i know it's not worth it.
and as i am writing this down, putting them into words, snippets of everything we've been through have been flashing before my mind.

honestly, I'm tired of this drama.

just let me regain my energy and wind down a little. and while I'm at it, please don't make things worse.
hopefully, I'll still have the will power to carry on.

**********
being on a beginning of a whole new beginning at the same time makes me feel as if being sliced into half, if you get my drift. of course this happy side of me would very much dominated my entire self, but honestly speaking, there is still a small proportion where the emotional and depressing side dwells. I am drifting away into this new beginning with a very open heart because i know that i need this and i hold this very dear to me; which is also my everything now.

and this is the only place, the only someone who seems to understand me better that i do myself, the only one who i can confide in, the only place where i can snuggle up and feel the warmth, the only place where i can express everything and the only one who would never make me sad; instead turn me around and make me forget all the sorrows that i have.i have the sense of belonging here.

i will never give this up for anything else.

(:

happy seventeen yong en! (:

thank you for being such a great friend, k.birodata, ex-classmate
and a someone who will always be there.
enjoy your seventeenth year!

from the both of us.

gotta rush away with you.

so, hi tea ended. and I'll maybe blog about it sometime later. (:

sunday was pretty okay. talked to someone in the morning and you never fail to make me feel better at all times. went to mont kiara with mummy, got a very cute dress and a teddy bear chain. ate ice cream. *remember our ice cream date?* hang around, walked up and down, ate, talked, laughed. then there was this purple balloon stuck to the ceiling, so this someone very kind helped me get it. reminded me of the white balloon he gave; still tied to my bed.(; and then left to bangsar and then to KLIA to pick up my aunty & uncle. had dinner at subang parade later on. had my late night happiness again. =)

yesterday, went to taylor's with the cousin and her friend to enquire about our courses and all. to cut the story short, the counselor at taylor's wasn't as good as the previous college we went to. and then we went to subang parade again. always our first stop, mph bookstore. spent at least an hour or so there and didn't get anything. then, we had ice cream and fries at mcD's. there was this someone who the cousin's friend and i think has something towards the cousin. *coughtheguycoughatcoughcoughtheicecreamcountercough* XD later,went to collect durians for our aunty and the three of us had a good time spent in the car while waiting for time to pass. got back to klang and watched sydney white because the cousin haven't watch it and was so eager to do so. much later on, had family reunion dinner; but not really a complete one. because many were missing. :] after dinner, went back to the cousin's place where the both of us started our very own therapeutic activity. something we always do when we have the space and time to ourselves. ohh, and i went through her drawers and found her biggest, darkest, most precious possession. haha XD you know what I'm talking about, Jian. and someone else was so sweet.
came home & fell asleep.

today, i had a very nice morning. (:
rush away with you alone.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

day 120.

you have the key to my heart.

Friday, August 15, 2008

nothing but us.

hyper & amazing.
current ketua skuad A & ex-pkp. (:
10 seniors and one extra. XD
can you spot the extra?
fifi & mimi.

one & only partner in crime. =)

august 15th 2008- we're officially retired.
i know i said expired this morning. sorry! ):

doesn't feel good at all, but well,we all have to grow up.
we'll still be around.

and the above was what i managed to get on our last day.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

the sweet escape.

haven't been talking about everything that's going on in my life. when people ask, i just say 'so far so good.' because it's as though there are two parts of me. was one, now torn apart. but only you know everything. just as you said, not only to share the good and happy things, but also the sad and depressing side which sums up to my everything.

skip those emotional stuff. I'm happy with you around.

hi-tea is on Saturday. aah, the excitement! as we seniors are doing a short musical. funny and well, indescribable. stayed back yesterday & today for practice and rehearsal. & my goodness, this close friends and 'rakan seperjuangan' are hilarious, whacky and so amazing. the gang is creative. all hopes that everything will go well and everyone will enjoy it. I myself laughed until my stomach muscle was stretching to it's max till it was so painful. and then there's the 'posing thing' with the partner in crime. speaking of him, he knows something now, found out the day before yesterday. you lucky boy! (:
and then certain stuff got worst but i guess it will be over soon. I guess, I don't know. I'm afraid. but, i have that pillar of support & comfort.
holiday's soon. great, study feast! aha. XD fight against the laziness in me.
and yea, national service! the cousin sister is in & she's pretty worried. the kawan baik as well. ):
tomorrow's the last day of us seniors as prefect's on duty. we'll be off duty but we'll still be around.
this is so random lar, elisa.

sorry, my mind's like everywhere now.

i just can't escape the truth, can i? am i about to lose this friendship just because you acted all weird to me? if it weren't for him, i think i would have scream in your face. seriously, please don't do this to me again. I don't know what to do anymore. ): and then there's the 'teddy' case, someone would know. I have no idea on that too. I'm sorry for saying this too many times, but I've to say it again. If it weren't for you, I don't know what would have happened to me.

you are so sweet & nice.
it was a higher chance of 'the bitter wound' rather than 'the sweet escape.'
but because of you,
everything's so much better.

fits perfectly well.

the 3 words
&
the 5 stars.

so sweet. <3

Monday, August 11, 2008

through it all.

oh noooo i kena ns! Ahhh
-the kawan baik, 4.01pm today.

I rushed to on the computer to check whether i was one of the selected ones.

so today, I found out whether I'm one of them.
the day which I've been waiting for also the day that i have been dreading for it to come.

to the kawan baik,
it 's okay. we're in this together. don't worry, God has His plans for you.
you still have us, remember? ;)

and this also goes to the dearest cousin.

& to you, I'm happy we both didn't get. (:

Saturday, August 9, 2008

of all the stars high above.

today-walkathon!
I had fun & definitely enjoyed myself a lot.

thank you for the balloon and the picture.<3
you know who you are.

we 5J people had our 5J.FM.
it was pretty good & fun.
the profit doesn't matter but hey, it was great doing it as a class.
& the musical telegram that someone did for me, XD; priceless.

on a very depressing note which you can ignore,
something happened to me.
sigh.
This will take a while.
but don't worry, you know we'll pull it through together.
the both of us shall just forget that that thing actually happened, okay?
I'm pretty sure that person knows the truth already.
so, it's all back to us now. and our little fairytale. (:

and then at 12.30,
eden[hoewei, dana, elisa, julian] plus a few others did our very last show,
singing I'm yours by Jason Mraz.

sweet memories, amazing friends.

i love you eden people!
& you too. ;)

Friday, August 8, 2008

sixteenth week.

I'm still working on my masterpiece for you.

aaah! guess what? today's a Friday. (:
and this is where I'll go into as detailed as possible about today.
// on the way into school this morning, i bump into my partner in crime & we spotted our next target. so, we went and disguise ourselves and started on our mission. okay, the truth is as i was walking into school this morning, the partner in crime suddenly appeared behind me & then we walked into school. he had a trench coat in his hands. XD

and then and then, that certain someone came. ;)
please don't make me worried again.
the truth is, aah, the truth is only for me to know. hehe

today's classes were not as beneficial. we were all getting busy and hyped up for tomorrow's event- walkathon. & our class is doing our very own 5J.FM. there'll be message on air and a live musical telegram. ask me if you're confused. =)

before recess, ju and I went around to block C and D to promote and pass around the request/subscription form.
after the student's recess, a few of us stayed back to eat for a while. & something happened.
aaaaaaaaah! I feel so 'geli'. want to know why? he knows why.thank you for protecting. :]

okay, after that. ju and I went around school to paste posters for publicity. then, we met up with the other half of eden and a few others. & the other kawan baik is getting pretty sick. ):
I hope he gets well soon.

this whole week has been sweet.

to you, please don't ever make me worried again.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

this is the rain we're in.

it rained, we shared.
this is us.

you always know what's the right thing to say, to do and to express. (:
thank you for today.

you know me better, you don't need this.

because I'm in the mood for something else and not in the mood for the books. (;

starting time: eight. forty seven pm.

name: elisa
sisters: i have one.
brothers: i wish i had.
shoe size: =)
height: 159 cm
where do you live: somewhere under the sun.
favourite drinks: juices, smoothies & water.
favourite breakfast: English breakfast, please.
have you ever been on a plane? yes, I have. ;)
swam in the ocean: yeaaa..let loose in the ocean waves!
fallen asleep in school: not that i remember. XD
broken someone's heart: i have nothing to say.
fell off your chair: yup, when my clumsiness takes charge.
sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yes, it was a bit of a silent killer; being worried and all.
saved e-mails: when I'm just too lazy to hit the delete button and those worth saving.
what is your room like: my dwelling place.
what's right beside you: my phone.
what is the last thing you ate: dad's fried rice for dinner.
ever had chicken pox: yes, i clearly remember everything. aah, the itchiness and the medicine my mum used on me.
sore throat: aha yea, once until i totally lost my voice for a week.
stitches: no.
broken nose: noooo.
do you believe in love at first sight: i'm not sure about that. hehe
like picnics: depends on the company.
who was the last person you danced with: i have no idea.
last made you smile: there..that person. yea, you know. well, that person knows.
you last yelled at: i forgot.

today, did you...
talk to someone you like: haha (: you tell me.
kissed anyone: no.
get sick: not really.
talked to an ex: i don't have any, so how to?
miss someone: yea.
best feeling in the world: getting myself drenched in thy love. (:
do you sleep with stuffed animals: yess, my dolphin.
who do you really hate: no one.
what time is it now: nine. zero two pm.

randomness.
is there a person who is on your mind right now: yes.
do you have any siblings: yes.
do you want children: hehe yes.
do you smile often: ask the people around me.
do you like your hand-writing: ;) i likey our hand writing.
whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: uhmm..
what is the colour of your t-shirt now: white.
what were you doing at 7 pm yesterday: in slumberland. XD
i can't wait till.. I see you. (:
when did you cry last: pretended to; just now,because someone said something.
are you a friendly person: ask them.
do you have any pets: no, i would love a dolphin. a pair of dolphin.
where is the person you have feelings for right now? at home. studying right, you?

did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?
(: I'll remember Tuesday.

do you sleep with the tv on? no.
what are you doing right now? sitting, waiting, wishing. -jack johnson. (:
have you ever crawled through a window? nooo..
can you handle the truth? sometimes.
are you closer to your mother or father? mum.
who was the last person you cried in front of? my three close friends.
how many people can you say you've really loved? them, the best friends. and that someone special. but, I still love them.
do you eat healthy? yea, sort of.
do you still have pictures of you and your ex? i don't have an ex, so how to?
have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? yess, and that Friday.
how often do you go to church? Friday's cell. Sunday church. and certain Saturday's.
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? you.
are you loud or quiet most of the time? I don't know.
are you confident? yes, sometimes.

and I shall stop here. sorry for skipping the rest of the tag. :)

you know me much better, you don't need this as reference.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

our puzzle pieces.

this is us.
it feels like we're at the end of a fairytale where happy ever after begins.
but the truth is, our fairytale has just began.
and we're living a happy ever after together.

our jigsaw puzzles, they fit perfectly well.

what would I do without you?

to the partner in crime;

by the name of muhd nuur ashman,

Happy Birthday to your special friend.

you're single & only available for that certain someone, right? (:

you so need our help. XD

i know you read here, so this is specially for you. =)

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

our blue ribbon.

I love days like these;
where we share every single moment together.
A warm hand & a cold hand. (:


and you, kawan baik...

you better take care & be careful.
no more surprises like this morning's,please.
get well soon; we'll always be here.

and and we shall walk slowly to the labs now. (:

Monday, August 4, 2008

for us.

in the midst of this sweet taste of reality.

Sunday was combine celebration. good time spent, great company & wonderful moments. sat next to joel & sherina during worship & service. (: and i enjoyed myself. puchong did worship and after everything ended as people adjourned for refreshments, the few of us youth who were sitting in a row & wasn't part of the worship team, stayed back and sing along with the team. supportive people. =)

after service, came home to finish up on homework.
someone msg-ed saying that couldn't talk tonight because of certain reasons. ):

went to 1 utama again with mummy and the sister. again, first destination- craft haven. sister got some stuff there and then we went to mph again. this time around, without the cousin sister's up to date recommendations and points of view, i went through every single book and picked out 5 of which i am interested in. in the end, i only got 3 of them after going through with my mum. but, it was nice and good. then then, looked for a place to have dinner. so, we decided on japanese. *favourite* & then, aunty called and we decided to go to klang. on the way out, stopped by a shop which we stopped by earlier to pick up my bag. yeay! a cute bag with a colour that i really like. (: and then off we went to klang. stopped by miss cousin's house for a while and left for dinner. nice food in the new jusco bukit tinggi. =) came home late and knocked out immediately. woke up at the wee hours in the morning to get ready for school and remembered that i had a chemistry test this morning. grab my chem note book as i left home. i actually didn't feel like attending school today but something, a certain something always encourages me. ;) and so i did. chem test was okay, not too hard; despite the fact that i only managed to flip through the pages of my chem notes.

today is totally unexpected. but you know what, i really appreciate and treasure this times. i also thank God for blessing me with these blessings. I'm just feeling happy and glad that I found this source of happiness. Also my pillar of support and comfort. and I'm sure this will be a happy ever after. some of you might know what I'm talking about while some of you might be scratching your head wondering what's happening; but don't worry, when the time is right, you'll eventually know.

waiting for tonight. (: because you know why.

thine prince;

one bite of cookie,
from you to me.
this is us.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

not just any other day.

yes, not just another normal Saturday. because today was great. Despite it being a Saturday, i dragged myself out of bed at 7.30 am although very tempted to just press the snooze button. got ready to meet miss cousin, her wonderful friend and my aunty. & off we went to sunway university college for it's university day. but, we did not join the activities planned out. instead, we went for a good 2 hours of inquiries about further courses and fields of studies that we are interested in.

her 1: i am interested in engineering, journalism, aviation and geology.
her 2: I'm looking into journalism and culinary arts. & maybe performing arts.
her 3: medical, events and hotel management.

see if you can guess which of the above is yours truly. (:

after a very intense, detailed, understandable explanation by a very pleasant lady there, we came out of the office happily and headed for the mall.
first destination: craft haven. got some art supplies from there which were mainly scrap booking materials. and then, went to mph for a good 3 hours of books, books, words & more books. it was on sale, everything in mph. no wonder miss cousin got so excited. XD planned to get a book or two, but decided not to in the end. I don't know why, just didn't feel like it perhaps. And i got myself a pencil case which can also be a pouch; a very cute one. wanted to look for my bag but didn't have the time to, so we left feeling contented. ;)

there's always a next time right, miss cousin?
you must come with me shopping all the time. =)
& we have our mission to complete, remember?
in aussie land, maybe?
yeaaa,definitely.

never far from you.

Friday, August 1, 2008

where i belong;

the five of us, after all we've been through together.
great friends, wonderful memories.

& our story together.

the prince and the princess.

at the back of the class.