days.

7 weeks.
=)

wish upon the stars.

turn back and wave.

I will be waiting,
at the very same place you left.
I'm counting the steps you're taking,
until you turn back,
look at me,
smile and wave.
;)

the mosquitoes are annoying me, whether it's in school or at home.
I have an ulcer and a cut, one beneath the tongue and the latter on the surface. Both hurts terribly.
I have a friend, who I want to thank. <3 so,to you-know-who-you-are, thank you.

like everybody else's, life has been hectic. I think I left off my last post on Tuesday. Wednesday and today was just like every other day. But, my every other day is filled with lots of laughter and joy, so was Wednesday and today. xD Thank God for the people around me that fills my days with happiness and excitement and tons of fun & laughter. with stupid acts, funny statements, jokes that don't make sense and blablabla . friends, they never fail to make you smile. at times, they make you frown. ;(

so, we had a new probationary prefect on board.lots of homework pouring in. and noooo!! SPM. >.< I actually had in mind what I wanted to blog about, but I forgot. and I really salute you,my dear cousin Justine. Even through the midst of your chaotic busy hectic life, you still always manage to blog everyday. During Physics class today, teacher used the ripple tank and a vibrating machine to produce waves. Though it was interesting, it was eye-hurting and made us dizzy.

randomness...
I want to dissect a frog! though I'm not sure whether I will be able to have full concentration towards the whole dissecting process. =)

and I haven't gotten my blue adorable cute squeezy huggable lovable fluffy dolphin.

where art thee?
-elisaAaAaAAaa

a friend.

skip the orientation. I'll start from yesterday.

Before that, Julian said he have seen hoe wei's name here on my blog quite a number of times.and so, Julian,this is for you.

Julian.julian.julian.juju.juliAn.juLian.julian.julian.julian.julian.Julian.juLian.julian.JULIAN.
julian.JuLIAn.julian.Julian.julian.Julian.julian.JUlian.juliAn.julian.julian.JuLIAN.julian.
jUlian.Julian.julian.JuliAn.juju.juuuuuliAn.juliAN.Julian.julian.Julian.julian.JULian.juliAn.

oh noo! I've seen too many j-u-l-i-a-n that I'm wondering whether his name is spelt like that. XD

Back to yesterday.
so, Julian wasn't his usual self.He was quiet, look tired, not hyped up and just quiet. If you know him, he is usually noisy and entertaining. But,not yesterday. and for once, he didn't say he was hungry or made an attempt to eat in class before recess. All hopes that today he'll be back to his usual self.

and so he did. He was back to his normal self today. (: we were happy! random, entertaining, loud, funny he was.
see, Julian..we care for you!
ohh..and thomas almost kiss him. xD

j.u.l.i.A.n. =)
oops! it's ike.

carefully thorned out.

I love sticky rice.
my dad cooks yummy food. <3

Song stuck in my head: I adore by hillsongs.

I was just looking through the pictures taken during the year end holidays. oh,how i miss the holidays! and the late sleep-ins, late bed time, no homework, you name it.
now that classes are back for exactly 3 weeks, I haven't got my heart prepared to pay full attention to the books.One day as I was lying down thinking, some walnut thoughts came across. "maybe I should start making books my best friend/boyfriend. You can talk to them,complain to them and they will reply,only in the form of knowledge." come to think of it, it only benefits me and that is good. The book has nothing to loose. I can talk to them and they won't answer back, break my heart, say vulgar words, offend me but they will help me to be smarter. Fill me with knowledge. haha Then I'll have tons of boyfriends.

I'll take that into consideration.

Today we had PMD again after recess. How I wish I could put into words how much I felt like drifting away into dreamland. Only Julian was able to sleep soundly. I wonder how he does that. Yea,he practically sleeps in class everyday. Sitting next to him is a challenge for me! Don't get me wrong,I do enjoy it! ;) and Julian,don't make me feel miserable again, please! Throughout the whole session, although I was listening and trying to grasp some points, my mind was actually in Artantica. I know, big metaphor. The reason why was because my mind wasn't in the hall, I was thinking about other stuff and my mind was almost frozen. Not exactly frozen, but yea, you get the meaning.

On a random note,
playing with words are fun.
I love the colour of the new book-purple stripes.

"Each of us have our own stories to tell..
and I would like to share a little bit of mine..
are you the one I want to share them with?
..........
I think I choose you.
But, who are you?"

Prefects' orientation is tomorrow till Saturday evening, like a 24 hour stay over. Only I'm not allowed to sleepover in school. Hopefully I'll survive a hectic tomorrow. someone help me! and then I'll blog about the orientation. On the other hand, the youth will be going to ah jian's house to do cookies. I so want to join in the fun too. But, orientation will be fun too. Thorn between two. I don't know. But, I'll stay with my decisions and responsibilities. and that is? The prefects' orientation. ;)

Time to wrap my book and write a short journal.

Take care everyone.

cute squeezy blue fluffy special cuddly huggable lovable dolphin, be mine!
-elisaAaAaaAA.

& I thought.

random sentences/questions/words/thoughts to some people.

" what are you trying to do now?"
"I like you."
"you are one of a kind."
"please slow down with all your emotions. You're making everyone confused, seriously."
"Thank you for being there."
"aah! I don't know."
"please just leave me alone, sometimes."
"thank you thank you."
"can you try to be more alert?''
"special people leave special memories.you're one of them."
"I'm confused with you."
"Never judge a book by it's cover."
"yea,I'm not as smart as you."
"Sorry."
"are you trying to tell me something?"
"just because I like something, you don't have to laugh at me."
"I don't understand you people. Stop being nice in front of people when you are actually back-stabbing them."
"Think before you do.please!."
"stop being so sad,emotional,moody,unhappy. life isn't all about that. be happy and contented with what you have,ok?"
"I'll be here for you."
"come on,you can do it."
"sorry for not noticing you."
"always and forever, you are special."
"friends and family are important, don't take them for granted. appreciate them!."
"God loves you, always till forever."
"I'm right here. Can't you see me??'

but you don't have to take to heart everything I say.
- elisaAaAaaAA.

scribbles.

once again, I changed my blog name.
the previous one was a bit too long. (:

went to OU today. wanted to get that super cute huggable dolphin soft toy. But,they only had the pink one in the size of which I wanted. The blue one is the smaller version of it. Would probably need to go to mid valley to get the blue one. XD in the end, got a book-the 4th book of the 'what if..' series. supposed to continue with my homework now, but the laziness in me is overtaking.

This weekend is gonna be hectic. God, please give me the strength to go through it.

entangled,
trying to untangle myself.

take away the tears.

stained.

*************
imagine the above is a piece of white paper,
what do you see?

do you see what i see?

not anymore.

Not my old self anymore.

I wrote something in my little prefects' note book yesterday and I shared it with 3 people.

"There are other people who cares". That was what I wrote.

And yes hoe wei,I was feeling down yesterday because of you-know-what. So,I'm sorry. I'm now happy as ever. xD Yea,so practically wrote that yesterday because something happened.Not a big deal anyway. But,I really thank the one who I can share everything with.

Yesterday's youth prayer meeting was great! We prayed, worship and just spend time together. Thank you dear youth. (: And I believe that God will answer our prayer if it is according to His will. But, as Genesis 6:22 has said "Noah did it.Everything that God had commanded him." We too must do what God has commanded us.

reminder to self: even if the forces of the world are going against you, REMEMBER that there are other people who cares. and God will always be there.

little.

Wouldn't it be nice to just sit back and watch the sunset,
listen to the waves and feel the breeze?

Wouldn't it be nice to just stare into the beautiful night,
waiting for a shooting star just to wish upon something?

Yes, it'll be the perfect moment.

always and forever.

You will always be my cuddly pillow.

You are the brightest shining star,
a romantic poem,
a beautiful song,
an unforgettable adventure.

I want you to know that you are special to me.
and I will never want to loose you.
I hope you know that I didn't want to let go.

I like the way you stay in silence,
it feels like there are a lot running through your mind.
I like the way you make me happy,
you always know when something is wrong.
I like it when you care,
it makes me feel like the luckiest girl on earth,
and I want you to know that I care for you too.

always and forever, you'll be my star.

mango tango.

down with a flu, stuck with a sore throat.

and I got 'em spread to the birthday boy.
sorry dear birthday boy! (:
I hope you recover by tomorrow.

Life's picking up with high acceleration at this moment in time,
the world is changing for a better tomorrow,
sometimes I highly doubt that.
Life has once been referred as a drawing without an eraser,
that I agree,
The past cannot be erased.

and yes, as aforementioned, life is picking up with high acceleration.
Homeworks are pouring in like a heavy rain,
co-curriculum activities are about to start.

my last year of high school,
let it be a great celebration,
an enjoyable year,
filled with all the best things in life,
a sweetest memory, forever.

and not a year we suffer to get ready for SPM.
because the next thing we know, we'll be parting our own ways.
never will we get to sit down and talk, laugh or share little secrets everyday; again.

right beside.

your randomness,
brings laughter.
your uniqueness,
brings wonders.

to the one sitting next to me,
Happy 17th birthday!

and yes, you remind me of many things.

sometimes silence is the best.

I was hoping to see you.
you left then you came back.
we saw each other,
and we smiled.
not a word uttered,
just a smile,
that was heart melting.

I now know sometimes silence is the best.
you and I could just speak through it.
A smile would just be fine.

to the one who spoke through silence,this, I dedicate to you.

somewhere in the ocean.

To Elaine, who has been a great friend during primary school days, I would like to wish you a happy17th birthday!
To Adrissa, happy 15th birthday! Have a great birthday and may you enjoy every bit of it!
To Joel, who has been there all the time; sharing, caring and listening; happy 14th birthday!
may you three have a great, fabulous, wonderful, blessed and jolly birthday! (;

Classes today started off pretty normal.Apparently our lisan period isn't a free period anymore. Pn.cheah, our lisan teacher came in and told us that we are supposed to be reading during lisan period. Either we bring our own reading materials or she'll provide it for us, or we could volunteer to do some presentation. and today,Piser volunteered to share next week.I can't wait.
So,we had to hand in our essay titled 'tomorrow' today. Hoe wei's one was sad,touching and sad. Julian's was too factual,but he did not really managed to complete he's essay.So,he didn't hand it in. Unfortunately,we didn't get to read Dana's. English teacher gave out the essay book in class after we handed it in. She wanted us to mark our friend's essay,correct the mistakes and rate it. Wonder who got mine. =) Anyway,according to julian who got chan hoong's essay,his essay was sort of stagnant.Not much of a climax nor a suspense nor a tragic..The story was too smooth. Well,the story sort of started with a guy at a beach side.Then the guy went back to this restaurant located in the outskirts where he is a frequent customer,ordered fried rice and soya bean cincau is it? I forgot. Then he saw this girl who looked innocent and has fair skin complexion. Not long after he saw her, he heard a loud screech and the next thing he saw was that the girl was under the tires,blood splattered everywhere.
-and that was the end of his story. apparently he couldn't finish his essay on time.-
Most of the times when he writes an essay,there will surely be this girl who looks innocent,has fair skin complexion and of average height. I remembered from his 'love' essay. xD maybe that girl really exist and he likes her. XP

Back to the morning. After short daily assembly,the prefect's sang a birthday song for adrissa. (;
and gave her a little present and a card.

Julian-5 more days.We're counting the minutes. :)

As I was waiting for my mum to fetch me from school, I stared into the school compound; especially the assembly ground. I missed the roofless assembly ground, the one where we can gaze up at the sky, the one which was much much brighter and seemed like it had more freedom. But with the new roof, it isn't that bad after all. maybe. Just that I missed it being roofless.
Come to think of it,I'll be leaving high school in a few months. I vividly remember the day I entered the school,the first day of morning session, the first day I wore a prefect's uniform and the day I became a senior. I'll definitely miss the school,the people,the atmosphere,the classrooms,the labs,the grasses and ......

I wonder where would I head to next year?
Things will never be the same.
But the memories and friendship I will treasure.

i think i saw myself.

my dream last night was extremely long, like a series of episodes. I had special powers to communicate with weird creatures,like jennifer love hewitt in ghost whisperer.xD yes,I'm not kidding. I think I've been watching too much shows.and if you're wondering,I like watching ghost whisperer.and my aunt thinks she's pretty. Anyway,yea,I had the ability to communicate with weird creatures,not the deceased. There was one part of the dream where I was sitting in my living room with a bag of glass bottles (; on my lap.Then there was this creature who is also an octopus, just that this octopus has eight purple eyes all line up in a row.That snippet is still very clear in my mind now.the octopus was staring at me while I was choosing glass bottles.We were both kind of communicating in silence,reading each others mind. freaky? xD

Then there was another part where I was at this American-little town restaurant,like talon in smallville all by myself.It was at night and I was doing some stuff behind the bar counter.In the blurry mist at night,a big size fire fighter appeared.But since it was dark and misty,I couldn't really see who it was.Just that I saw the guy wearing a fire fighter's uniform. and then,that huge big-size fire fighter turned into two young man wearing tux.The right one in black tux and the left one in brown. There was this young lady standing in the middle of both of them. By the way,that scene really does remind me of smallville, another all-time favourite of mine.

Another highlight of the dream was unbelievable. My family and my cousin's family(yes,justine..it's you!) were on a trip overseas.Then we were supposed to take another flight to some other place.But,I forgot my camera.( I bring my camera along everytime I go somewhere special or new) And we were about to board the plane in like 15 minutes. So,my mum(note that this is just a dream) paid for a car and ask me to drive back to get the camera from the hotel. Being me who always have an impression that driving a car is like playing a car racing game on the play station,I was shocked by what my mum suggested. and I didn't know how to drive one! I'm only 16+. So my mum ran through all the basics in 5 minutes. I still remember asking her which is the brake,what should I do when I want to stop or park the car. Learning how to drive in 5 minutes? wow! Impressive. But it was just a dream. Anyway,the next thing I knew,I was already on the road,driving a white colour car all by myself. hmm..why didn't justine tag along? xD I think I speeded and drifted like I was a pro car racer.

I think I watched too much telly. dreaming about smallville and ghost whisperer proves my point. except that I've haven't dreamt about one tree hill.

Well,I wish I could communicate with dolphins. (;

Speaking of dolphins,my mum once told me 'wah! everyone knows you like dolphin.' xD
Justine gave me a dolphin mug for christmas, which I am using it right now; Rach gave me a dolphin key chain with a purple bell, which it's dangling on my phone; sherina gave me a dolphin wind chime last year, which is still in my cupboard; christa gave me 2 dolphin soft toy key chain for my birthday, 1 attach to my pencil box, another attached to my school bag, ying yi gave me a key chain made from metal which is shaped into a dolphin with a blue bell, which is attached to my orange roxy bag; sherina gave me a dolphin soft toy key chain too last year, but is now so flat and black. My only hope is to get a dolphin soft toy and a paired dolphin chain which I have been wanting for a long time. Wait till I get back to that shop,then I'll get the cutest,chubbiest dolphin soft toy there. Only thing is I haven't found a paired dolphin chain, like those in the korean shows. =)

note: dolphin as in the blue mammal that is extremely cute. (;

passion.

I miss writing.
Currently working on a piece for someone.
(;
I'll post it up after I've given it to that someone.

and

I miss the gu zhen.


My symphony isn't finish yet.

song number 5.

on the fifth day of christmas my true love gave to me.....
i miss the christmas and the holidays!

on the fifth day of school my friend drove me nuts...

well,not really.Just that Julian was playing this mind thinking-concept-listening game with me and hoe wei.It really did drive me and hoe wei up the wall.We were eager to break the concept.xD
school started with bm lesson.but,unfortunately teacher was busy/absent and she did not enter class.so,we eden people were busy helping julian by cutting up Christian fellowship's invitation cards.

The last period of the day is english.Teacher gave us an essay titled 'tomorrow'.I'm still thinking about what am I going to write. We had prefects' meeting today.It lasted for about 2 hours.and yea,I saw people dozing off,people doodling,people looking here and there,people yawning,people staring at the ground....

Tomorrow is a holiday! At least I don't have to wake up early and I can sleep late tonight. But I've got tons of work to finish up.The sorting out of names,the essay,the PEKA's,the add math and the list goes on.

I'm so happy today! (;

onezerofive

I guess last Friday was the last time I updated the blog.
and yes,I still do intend to change the url of my blog.

My weekends were pretty relaxing,with waking up late,lazing around,
telly programmes and Archie's.
Monday was a bit chaotic.
Faiz suddenly walks up to me and tells me that I have to host the assembly.At first,I thought he was joking..then the "joke" didn't seem to be a joke.Took the script,ran around the school like a mad person looking for teachers asking whether they have any announcements to make. Before actually being up on the stage all by myself,I was quite nervous and afraid that I would say something wrong or my trembling voice would give away how I felt.But,it turned out pretty well.I mean,it might not be the best but at least I was satisfied and I gave my best.and when I was actually standing up there holding the microphone with both my hands,I did not feel a slight of nervous.Thank God! (: yea,I prayed before I went up.
In the afternoon around 1pm,we (faiz,ashman,me,prem and chan hoong) had to leave class to help the afternoon prefects arrange the assembly.
Maybe it was because we were wearing blazers, all eyes were on us wherever we went.
and I saw my sister! lining up for class for the first time. =)

Today was just as good as yesterday.
except that hoe wei fell sick and was absent.

hoe hoe wei wei,get well cepat-cepat!
you missed some fun today! xD

foolish-ness.

it was just a silly thing to do.
big mistake.
terrible step.
stupid choice.

whatever happened happened.
It was the best thing that happened,actually.

the most i could do now is just smile. (:

count my blessings and never ask for more.
be satisfied with what you have.

puzzled.

the first day of school isn't that bad.maybe.it's sad to know that it'll be the last first day of high school years when i am required to where my uniform.my class is on the ground floor,so we don't have to climb the staircase.eden is separated.dana and hoe wei is sitting at the right side of the class while julian and I is sitting at the left corner of the class.how far! no more daily eden talk. :( at least there's still julian to accompany so I won't feel bored.

I still can't believe that I am already a form 5 student.The fact can't seem to be registered in my brain.

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I told myself that I would not recall the bitter unwanted sour memories from the past and try my best to forget it. I'm trying.

Without realizing,I tend to escape from reality at times.afraid to face facts and reality,always wanting more of dreams and imaginations.

and I do regret some things,some things from the past.maybe it wasn't a right thing to do.

Dear Lord,
please help me face reality with confidence,bravery and strength. Never let my weakness pull me down.I pray that everything will be alright and the regrets I have will be taken away.Guide me in everything I do.I'm sorry if I've hurt anyone. Thank you for every blessings in my life and may you continue guiding me,forever and ever.Amen.

what's going to happen next?

so, new year's countdown at church was great.
we had noise, glow sticks, stuff that makes tons of noises, laughter,worship and jumping.
celebrated sister's birthday with a surprise cake.
reached home around 2 a.m.

It's now a new year. I have new year's resolution too,but I'm not going to list them down. (: So,it's the SPM year. and I wonder what's going to happen next since it's a brand new year with classes starting tomorrow? I wonder. I don't know. I'm just hoping that everything will be alright and the bitter past shall not be remembered.

A whole new year. A whole new feeling. A whole new heart.