the 40th day. (:

I'm going to count the days till that dream come true.

***
I'm going off to Cameron's tomorrow..

... with them.

***
.today.
is one of the best days for one of the kawan baik.
you have to tell me what happened. (:

is chee meng's birthday!
Happy Birthday chee meng!
Hope you'll have a blessed great superb birthday.

is the 40th day.
I know we'll share more. <3

I wrote them.

Rules - Bloggers who have been tagged have to start with 10 random facts about themselves. At the end of this, you have to choose 10 people and tag them about this quiz.

1) I spent the night at a friend's place last night, something I've never done before.
2) I sleep with two pillows.
3) I do not favor chocolate.
4) I do not like quite a number of words, the way they sound or what they mean.
5) I have certain dreams that I want them to come true.
6) Friday's mean a lot to me. (:
7) I am afraid of changes at times, even if it was for the better.
8) I have a some sort of a twin, my cousin. =)
9) I like reading mystery books; now on False Impression by Jeffery Archer.
10) I had to crack my head doing this. I don't reveal much random facts to people like that.

there are more random RANDOM facts, but it's okay. ;)

I tag: nic & sherina. and someone who doesn't have a blog, but you'll have to tell me.

under that tree.

" As long as we can love each other,
and remember the feeling of love we had,
we can die without ever really going away.
All the love you created is still there.
All the memories are still there.
you live on, in the hearts of everyone you have touched
and nurtured while you were here."
-morrie shwartz.
from Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom.

learn to give & share the love we have,
be a lighthouse that will shine & glorify His name.
you will be remembered.

blue sky evenings.

just got back from ju's place an hour ago.
guess the rest of 'eden' is still there. (:

will be meeting them again tomorrow night.
for more conversations, ideas & fun.
anyway, off to change & get ready for dinner tonight.
will be meeting up with the cousin too. =)


I'm exhausted.
and I miss you.
where are you?

you don't know...

... how much you mean to me.

& if you are reading this,
I just wanted to let you know you mean a lot to me.
you don't know how much I miss you,
but I want you to know that I wish you were here right by my side every minute now.

***
we had Teacher's day on Friday. It was great & it was the first year the prefect's had to manage the entire event from head to tail. Faiz & a few of us were running around the school the whole Wednesday and Thursday to get things done. It was tiring but it paid off well. We enjoyed. Lots of pictures in my camera, too priceless and precious to be posted here. sorry. (:
and fifi managed to hang our balloon chandelier despite the low possibility of it happening.
If you know my school, you'll know that the roof on the tapak perhimpunan is very high.
very dangerous & risky to climb that high. =) but it all happened.

and mr.ong, our principle said that the event was all up to us to handle.
he even asked us to surprise him.
I guess, we did surprise him.
too much of a surprise? (:

today, after church. went to one utama with the cousin and familia.
spent time together but wasn't able to catch a movie.
& justine, we didn't carry out our mission. sigh. Mission failed. ):
we'll do it the next time, okay?

well, we have dinner tomorrow together.
so, more actions with that little device? XD

***
I told you,
two weeks is too long.

yes, two weeks is too long without you.

I'll cross that road,
cross over to where you are.
& together, we'll make it happen.

this. I write to you.

25th May 2008.

to a very special & close friend.
Happy 18th Birthday!

though you are no longer with us anymore,
we know you'll always be part of us
and your presence will always be felt in the midst of us.

We know you're having a great & wonderful time there.

We'll meet again, my friend.

we miss you.

this is us.

we share a pocketful of sunshine.

you're my star,
my dearest.

& we're both under the sky,
lying on green pastures,
counting the stars,
together.

I'm happy with what you did
it was unexpected.

it wasn't just a dream.

I have something to say to someone.
something very important & meaningful to me.
but,I'll save it for the perfect moment.
(:

anyway..
mid terms are over.

notice the absence of exclamation marks after 'mid terms are over'? the truth is, I don't know whether to be delighted or sad after finishing all the papers. because it would be my last mid term in high school. =( besides, when I was talking to effendy & ashymany this morning, I realised that we have so little time left. I'm not ready to leave!!! Nooooo!

all I wish for after high school ends,
is that you & I will remain, treasure, appreciate the relationship that we share now.
I sayang you.

After recess, before est paper, we were talking about prom. Dana invited *ehem* to go with her, but he kept looking at hoe wei. I wonder why. (: then,talked to the kawan baik's for a while. Did I really look sad just now? Even my friend who was sitting somewhere at the opposite end of the class from us noticed, and she asked "elisa,why do you look so sad?''. =) I wasn't.

Only you would understand.
& yes, we both share a lot in common.

I know I have something the rest doesn't,
& you know what it is.
(:

the joy & love we share.

prefect's camp 2008.

through the days.

just saw some words & felt something.
I'm missing someone very dear to me now.
But, I'll save it for the night. (:

3 more papers till the end of mid terms.
pjk paper, english for science and technology & biology.
today, we had add maths and history. before history, ju, hoe wei and I were talking about 'stuff'. and i found out some interesting stuff, so did they. =)

I can't believe I'm almost done with mid terms. and I hope the results wouldn't be a nightmare.
there's family dinner tonight in celebration of my aunt's 5oth birthday.I heard it's going to be a pool side party. Jian! Ivan! mana kamu dua? Saya rindu kamu berdua lah! hehe hope to see the both of them there. and the rest of the big BIG family.

during the holidays, I plan to
-go to Cameron's with the youth.
-spend time with the books.
-spend time with the friend's.
-think what I want to do after high school.because my dad just ask.
-clear my messy table which is now covered with stacks of books.
-get that something done. (:

latest random facts about the close friend's;
-ashman's in love, in a pretending sort of way.
-prem & ash are like so sweet to each other. because they are .. just playing around,pretending to be each other's other half. but, it's just so nice to see the both of them playing around.
-karrern gave me & someone a new name.
-both karrern and wing yew are so creative when it comes to talking about me & someone.
-there is a little chance that the kawan baik's life will make a 180 degree turn.but, I guess he doesn't want it.
-the other kawan baik is going for his first date. (:
-effendy effendyyy effendyyyy! =) nothing about him,just being his usual self.
-dana is turning smarter! & she wears specs now. and she comes to our blog and leaves comment without leaving her name. XD
-chan hoong is also just being his normal self.maybe a little extra. =)
and the rest are good.

today the newly installed prefect's got to wear their blazer for the first time. and since it is a friday,our normal prefect's official assembly, it made it even better. though we're still having exams, we decided to have the usual friday assembly just because they wore their blazers.

kar meng's blazer looks big. ask him to eat more, he said he is already quite fat.
nic nicky :] don't think too much ok? maybe just maybe your perfect princess isn't here yet. continue being that prince and wait for her to come by.the best has yet to come for there are better in life.(:

last but not quite last yet,

I'm happy with what I have now,
for I know what I have is abundant.
thank you.

--------------

Though at times I feel like I'll be losing something very dear to me,
you're always there to ensure me that I won't lose it.
instead, you make everything feel right again.
you know who you are.

because you're just so sweet.

& you saved me.

you; hero.

somewhere deep down.

2 more days, 5 more papers till the finale of the exam period.
=)
can't wait for it to end,
can't wait for the holidays.
can't wait for the vacation,
& can't wait for the time that will be spending with them.

exams are exhausting.

you get back from school, clean up, eat..
dilly dally, spend sometime with the family or loved ones..
study till late night,
go to bed for 4 hours or so,
then wake up and study again.
get ready for school, leave for school.
reach school, put my bags down..
take out my books and start having group study with the fellow prefect's
while chatting a bit here and there..until the bell rings.
*bell rings* walks from the discipline room to the add canteen.
get my bags and head to class with the prefect's.
on the way to class, trying hard to memorize facts or formula's or anything,
while talking to them with head's down reading a book and trying to avoid getting knock into a pole or the wall or a human being.
reached class, greet the teacher good morning, get to my place..
plopped down on my chair & spend the remaining 15 minutes wisely.
then, teacher asks us to leave our bags outside.
as I put my book into the bag, I take a last glance at the book,
hoping to remember something important.
drop my bag outside the class by the corridor,
wishing 'all the best' to my fellow classmates,
then goes back into class & get ready for the killer paper. =)
while teacher gives out the paper, revise a few stuff with the friends around me
or just turn behind and reconfirm a few things with the other twin, another genius.
after being ordered to remain silent, we quietly write our name on the paper.
big *aah!* or *sigh* or *NOOOOO!* slips off everybody after going through the paper.
then we start working on the paper.

half way through the paper,
ju and I will look at each other
and say 'die lor' or do the 'cut throat' action.
or everybody will just look around and smile at each other.
some will be sleeping, some will be thinking deeply,
some will be checking through the paper, some will be scratching their head
while some will just stare into space.

if it's a writing paper,
some will get out of the chair & go to teacher's table to get extra papers.
not long later,
teacher's will say 'you have 5 minutes left',
when you realize either you haven't finish your calculations,
your last paragraph,
the shading of the objective answers or your last questions.
then if it's an objective question, you might decide to 'shoot' & simply shade the answer space that looks right to you.
if it's an subjective question, you might just think of some crap that might have a connection with the question and fill it in.
if it's a writing paper, you might just cut your long story short and jump to the ending.
if it's a maths or add maths subjective paper, you might just leave it blank.

after the teacher collects our paper,
we turn around and ask each other the same question,
"how was it?"
or say the same sentences.
" I hate this paper."
"why why why is it so hard?"
" I totally forgot the formula's."
"that part, I died already."
"did you leave anything blank?"

then we run across the class to certain people,
and share our thoughts on the paper.
some will instantly take out the book and confirm their answers.
the rest will head for recess.
do a quick revision over recess,
then go back to class and prepare for the next paper.

after the papers for the day,
we head home & wonder whether we wrote the wrong thing
and dwell or mourn on our mistakes. sigh.
but, we have to move on in life.
what's done has been done.

we get back home
and here we go again...

and this goes on for three weeks.

another day.

tagged by Jian.
since I'm exhausted from exams, I'll do it.

The rules are:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player then tags 4 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Start:
1. What was I doing 10 years ago (year 1998)?
-a completely clueless student in puay chai.
-making new friends.
-eating cereal almost every breakfast.
-trying my best to score perfect results.
-spending almost everyday with my best friend.

2. 5 things on my to-do list today.
-study.
-sleep.
-remind myself to stay back tomorrow.
-pack my bags.
-set my alarm for tomorrow morning.

3. 5 snacks I enjoy.
-crackers, cheese and so much more.

4. 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire.
-5 only? can I do more? =)

5. 5 of my bad habits.
-sensitive. writing in a way nobody understands. hiding certain things....

6. 5 places I have lived.
-malaysia. sabah. china. australia. grandparent's place.

7. 5 jobs I've had
-student. prefect. group leader. & others which can't be an example of jobs I had. (:

8. The 4 fortunate people who I spread this contagion to are
me you her him them.

of impulsive forces,pascal principle & heat capacity.

hehehe =) physics.
It was okay, better than add maths. But I dare not say I'll do well.
We didn't have time to calculate every single questions.
So many calculations, no formula & so little time to recount again. ):

we have mod math paper 2 and bm paper 2 tomorrow.
so lazy to study. sigh.

psst! where are you to get me into studying when I'm feeling lazy?

---------------------------
yesterday's.

Happy 17th Birthday,
Laveeeeen La Veen Lala Veen!

& today.

Happy 22nd Birthday, Gab!
( I wanted to post a photo of you like what sherina did, but I think I better not. xD)

and

Happy 16th Birthday,
Kevin Tey Wen Fei! *fly*

=)
have a great birthday all of you.

------------------
ashman, you're so 'in love' with that girl beside during exam. XD
prem, same to you. so in love. hehe
karrern, uh-hmmm! (points towards flag post)
ju, don't worry. you won't fail bm.

and there's mr. sun shine.

shattered.

):
shattered. no more. goodbye.

I don't like add maths.
add maths paper 2 today- lost case.
I better start working VERY VERY hard if I want that A1 for SPM.
elisa, you better do better in paper 1.

you're going to teach me add math. :)

English paper 2.
essays.
it was okay, far better than add math.
just that I didn't have enough time to make my story more dramatic,
interesting, touching & exciting.
I had to cut my long story short.
I was half way drowning in my own essay, then Julian said
"10 more minutes."
aaaaaah! cut off all the touching, dramatic part and just jumped to the ending.
=(
well, at least it was way better than add math.

tomorrow's paper is physics,
another subject which i don't fancy.

***
I was wondering..

how many co-incidents can happen between two people?

because as far as I know, a lot has happened.

suddenly i thought.

.random thoughts.

will we still be this close, share all our secrets & still share a tight bond after high school ends?
want to go for prom? maybe I should ask the gang first.
I'm just happy with what I have now.
sometimes I just feel that I'm not what you all want me to be.
you know, I have feelings too. I'm human, I have thoughts too.
I'm hoping everything will turn out perfectly right.
Where will I be in a year's time?
Can I just get these thoughts out of my head?
Stop trying to be someone else, just be yourself.
I need to be more hardworking.
I'll miss school and every part of it.
I'm hoping that we'll all still be as close as now or even closer even after we leave school.
I'm happy happy for you, my two kawan baik. (:
Who knew things will turn out the other way round within a short 6 months?
would they take a different route and get out of the current situation?
I want to eat sushi.
okay, the knee cap hurts again.
I'm missing someone very dear to me now.
Rachel's back!!! RACHEL'S BACK!!!!!
chem paper on Monday, why am I still here?
Wednesday, Friday, Sunday...the three days. =)
I am going to miss the prefect's.
Let's go somewhere, together. just the few of us.
hey, I had strawberries just now. XD
will my dreams come by someday?
I'm hoping to see you somewhere someday, by surprise.
I'll never forget them.
suddenly i miss puay chai & all the old friends.
I had a great time yesterday.
when will I get to see dolphins?
we have each other, you know that right?
I miss my cousins. Jian!! Ivan!! =)
I miss the orange orchard in Australia.
will I have dreams again tonight?

there's so mush that I've wished,
I've dreamed,
I've longed,
I've hoped,
and I know someday it will come true.
if you just believe.

I'm just glad to have you around &
I know I'm the luckiest, happiest girl on earth.
because you're part of my fairytale,
while others may longed for you to be part of theirs.
(:

I have long dreamed for that to happen,
just when will it come around?

love letters & strawberries,
I miss you.

engraved somewhere.

"A friend is someone
who can see the truth and the pain in you
even when you are fooling everyone else."

thank you dear friend when you knew I was crying when I laughed.

"Stars are like friends; there's always some around, you just need to find your favorite one."

*****

"There are a hundred reasons why I should give up, but you're the one reason I keep going."

dear you,

"When I take a look at the stars at night, I wish you were here, right by my side."

with love, yours faithfully.

why did the princess have a spark for the prince from far away land?
while she knew that just maybe she already had someone since childhood.

because he was amazing
and he still is.

everything changed since last year.
I know it's for the better.

& the prince from far away land
is now the prince in her heart.

my fairytale is special.
nobody is going to take it away.

then you came back & made everything fall into place.
the pieces of shattered heart mended,
the rainbow and sunshine came back.

you're amazing. (;

therefore,definitely.

I'm full because I just had lunch.

I'm tired because of the history paper just now,
was squeezing out as much info as possible from the back of my head.

I'm sad because of my carelessness.

& I'm missing something that's very dear to me.

away from history.

I'm now here, trying to escape from studying history.

history.
history.
his-story.
HISTORY.

if only history was optional...

dear history,
why must you be in the syllabus?

off to study history.
but I know I'll end up asleep.

you're making me happy :)

yes, you are. (:

today is the first day of exam, first paper down, 19 to go.
after the bahasa melayu paper, we had recess with the normal students.
It felt weird sitting down eating with my other friends, with the canteen packed & juniors doing their duty. but, i guess Friday would feel more weird. because that's the day where all prefect's will recess with the rest, not having the canteen to ourselves.
after recess, was the pendidikan islam paper.
we moral students gathered at the left side of the class,
got ourselves comfortable & started to study for tomorrow's moral paper.
In the end, while studying, few of us were passing notes & talking away.
more of the talking, less of the studying.
my moral paper's gonna be precious, with all the scribbles we did.

and julian was seriously getting his head into memorizing nilai's. =)

sorry to all who I've supposed to pass you guys stuff or inform you all anything,
I'm trying to get my head into exam exams and more exams.
& I'm down with flu.

I had dreams.
I don't know what they meant, but I know I'll remember them.
meanwhile, I'm happy with my glass of juice. (little inside joke)

today also marks the starting of 3 weeks of 'war'.
Put aside our thoughts, keep them safe in the drawer
and we'll do our best together okay, dear friend?

*****
you never fail to make me happy.
you always make me feel protected.
& just being around you
makes me very sure about it.

here we go again..=)

The rules are:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player than tags 4 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Start
1. What was I doing 10 years ago ( year 1998)?
I was a std 1 student in puay chai, not knowing what I would have and be 10 years time.

2. 5 things on my to-do list today.
-make sure i know my moral nilai's.
-read 'The Pearl' again.
-pack my bags.
-watch ugly betty? haha
-talk to someone.

3. 5 Snacks I enjoy.
-french fries.
-potato chips.
-rice crackers.
-cheese. =)
-gummy bears.

4. 5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire.
-give an offering.
-start a bakery for my mum.
-give part of the money to my dad.
-go around the world.
-save half of it for future use.

5. 5 of my bad habits.~
-i think too much.
-i worry.
-I'm sensitive.
-I'm dreamy.
-hide meanings between stuff in order to not let certain people understand.

6. 5 place i have lived
-china.
-australia.
-sabah.
-kuala lumpur.
-home sweet home.

7. 5 jobs I've had
-i'm a proud student. (:
while being a daughter, a friend, a best friend, a cousin, a niece, a grand daughter & a someone special.

~*4 people I tag*~
everybody is busy with mid terms now..so,I tag no one.
ohh, except for dearest cousin. xD

you're on cloud nine.

once upon a time, there was a prince charming.
then a witch changed him into a toad, left him in a pond,
only way to bring him back, was a kiss from the perfect princess,
years passed by as, others tried to put a cure to him, some didnt even bother,
then came this princess, to the rescue,
kissed the frog,
was that the perfect princess?
i hope so. =)

to ms. J

*a reflection on what happened today, x) stop that grin elisa. =)

the above was written by nic.

& this is what I have to say.

he was there,
waiting for her.
wondering where she would be,
what's she doing,
and what's going on in her mind.

hoping that he's in her mind,
wishing that she'll come by.

the abandoned prince was waiting for his princess.

ohh, princess..
where art thee?
thy prince can't wait any longer.

then she came by,
stood next to him,
and his heart went smiling.

(:

*nicky! you little lucky guy. =) i hope the HOPE that you have for her will grow into something real & amazing.

now i know.

"be glad of life,
because it gives you the chance
to love and to work and to play
and to look up at the stars."
-henry van dyke

I'll be glad.
I'll love, share & care.
work, play & have fun.
be all I am and do what I can.

& I'll look up at the stars.

colours in my palette.

hello,May.

sport's day was fun & awesome. :)

today was great too. =)
got to spend the day with dearest cousin & dear sister.instead of books hunting, we were cards seeking. birthday cards,thank you cards, cards for loved ones, teacher's day cards and so on.
went to mph to look for books but ended up at the card's section, each got cards for our own use. then,went walking around looking for presents but didn't find any. saw this really cute, adorable bear..but it was BIG. & then we went to toys r' us. haven't been there in a long time..but it was fun playing around. :]

had tea-dinner at Manhattan's fish market..
we enjoyed ourselves, didn't we?
just the three of us, crapping away, laughing our heads off.

**********

should be concentrating on spm now, right?
i hope i do.

with YOU,anything is possible. I'm sure.

tomorrow's another day.
the day when everything started.

I'll see you tmrw.
(: